sad

I don't even think that some of you are really my friends,you give me doubts,and I fucking hate doubts,how I wish I could go back to primary sch all over again,it wasnt that hectic,I miss it,fuck.i always feel so left out thaws few days,you all are giving me the cold shoulder,well,that's what I feel,I'm like transparent or something,yeah,maybe I should go do something with my fucking life...die?,these are the thoughts I have been having for a few months now...and it's not because of all of you I feel like dying,it's about EVERYTHING!,I used to be so happy without a thing in my mind...and now...look...I can't seem to form a real smile these few days,all of them that you all have been seeing are fake,I bet you would be puzzles when I die...haiz...but I don't feel like dying now,too bad,bet you all feel very sad thy I can't be out of your lifes yet...like...fuck,what's this world coming to anyway...I can't even smile now,that's how pathetic I feel...and just be happy you made me feel this way,I don't even have the feelings to cry about it,and I hate thinking about them...maybe I would be better off without all of you with the exceptions...you all make my life miserable,I should stay away,you all would be happier eh?haha


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life sucks

I can't stand it anymore,I think all my friends are fake,with the exception...like seriously...I think that whole group I hang out with is fake,it's like shit...omg,I don't really like my friends now with some exceptions...but srsly...I don't trust them like how I used to,withthe exceptions,maybe I let myself be further and more distant away from then then last yr when I was still much a happy go lucky girl,I don't really like getting close to anyone now,I'm scared I will hurt my self...but yeah...fuck...maybe I have only this little number of real friends...haiz.never trust anybody except the person your going to marry...wait...not even the person your going to marry,TRUST NO ONE.

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rants

omggg,fml again,I don't know who to trust alr,what is happening to this world?!,I can't take it anymore,I really want to leave this cruel world and never come back.I don't like feelings,how I wish to be a cold lifeless robot,fml,nothings's going right these days,my friends,I don't trust them as much as I used to now that I have been thinking about,friends aren't really worth alot of your feelings...family too...fml,sometimes I really wonder what is the use of my existence,and you know what?,I have already been slowly pulling away from my friends,I feel like crying about it,but I can't...haha,the irony...fml,that's all I can say.


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