I decided to watch Tidying Up with Marie Kondo yesterday, and it was so good. I finished episode 5 so far.
The episode with Margie was great. Grieving widow... I don't know and likely will never experience being a widower, but it must be really devastating to lose someone you spent 30+, maybe even 40+ years with. That's longer than my entire life. A person you wake up next to every day like the most natural and god-granted thing, just not there anymore.
It's a reality TV show, so perhaps a lot of it were scripted, but it still brought warmth to my cold heart. The Mersiers family was adorable. Having such sensible kids must be a real blessing. I wasn't even close to that when I was their age. A good upbringing matters. On the flip side, the parents were just as lovable. The kids are blessed.
I actually am doing a lot of the things she preaches, such as not buying things that I don't absolutely need... But that's only true when it comes to things other than games. I collect collector's edition games and don't look at most of the extra stuff that comes with them. I just enjoy having a large collection of those... But I think that's under the joy sparking category so it's fine...?
Also, I am grateful for my treasures. My most precious items are handwritten cards from friends. Unlike commercial items, those things are written just for me. I also appreciate my games. They are no doubt made for earning money, but the good games are all made with plenty of love. And those can be clearly felt by their players. Just recently, I have received much joy from Kingdom Hearts III. Next month there will be a reveal event by Falcom. I look forward to that so much. There's not much in life left that I look forward to now, so I will go as far as to say it's my ikigai.
As for people, there's Retoruto, who has sparked joy in my life since my uni days, was it 2013 or 2014, I can't even remember. I started watching his videos from IB I believe? It's been so long the details are lost to me. I remember my room mate asked me not to laugh so loudly because it affected his sleeping.
Early this decade I had a few more people who sparked great joy in me. Ayane, Shikura Chiyomaru, Tatsh, Stephen King and AKB48. Of all these people, I only still care about Stephen. Now I like Sakamichi groups' girls as much as I did AKB48 back in those days, so I guess I'm always gonna like AkiP idols.
I feel like trying out her methods, but can't as I don't even have my own permanent place now. All I have now are bare necessities. The day I get a place, I will be sure to try it out. It's still in the distant future, but I'm looking forward to it.
In other news, I'm having my ICT now. A very pleasant break from work. Even though I enjoy work well enough it's not my raison d'etre. If I could retire, I would. What would I do, I don't know. But I would have plenty of time to figure that out.
