Fuck, everyone.
I'm not happy. There's no one I can talk to, and my 16 year-old cousin has a fuckin' brain tumor. He's only 16. SIX-TEEN. I really can't confide to anyone, and it's like I'm all fuckin' alone. I chose to be this way... but, it still hurts.
A friend of mine told me she's never had sex, and even though she's writing a rape scene, she wouldn't know how to explain it, so she'd rely on the feelings instead. Good for her, but I kept thinking about being a 7 year-old kid in a closet with my older cousin. You know how nice it'd be to forget those memories for once?
People say they enjoy memories. I hate them. I hate the present, too. I hate being alone.
It's like I'm trapped in the darkness of that small closet, dammit.
It's like I'm giving up so easily and here's my cousin getting a brain tumor.
I can't stand it. I can't. I'm tired of saving everyone else and no one will save me.
fahkin' lobsta, BITCH~
Die's a fahkin' lobsta, bitch! I was never one for bestiality, but I'd like to have a sexy Die!lobster, I would.
I want to see if I can upate this journal at least once a day. . . so I'm going to try to attempt it (haha) I can't say that all my posts will have meaning, but it'll sure give me something to do.
I came up with another song for "Tragic Kill Show"--I'll have to record the guitar sample, but it's really beginning to sound like a bass guitar (laughs) Maybe I was fated to join the sexiness that is Toshiya & Saga, hm? KAKKOII, NE. (｡・ε・｡) I wish, tho. But, guitar is still very cool--one day I'll be as great as Die-kun & Kaoru.
"ひきこもり" COMING SOON. This is Kira, of Versailles, signing out (waves)
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I'm dirty, dirty, ne? Can't help eet. I got a receipt that read "no. 69" today. I laughed.
I haven't posted in awhile. . . sorry! I have to go back to school in a bit. Probably in a couple of hours, or so. Been working on some songs on my guitar. . . Ruka-kun & Stormy said I'd make a sexy bass guitar player. You think so? I might have to save up after I purchase an ESP model. ヽ( )｀ε´( )ノ
Stormy & I were talkin' and she told me she had a dream that she and I lived together. . . and there was some other person who lived with us that she didn't know! I'm sure it was Ruka-kun, since we were talking about that in our IM. (●´ω｀●)ゞ (so cute expression!)
Ruka = kitchen
Kira = lego bathroom
Stormy = sexy bedroom
一ばん！
ルカさんです！ キラさんは日本語をはなしません。 私はキラさんの言葉をタイープ。
キラさんが「ヤーフー私はかったぜ！！！」といいました。 ハハハ！
キラさんはバーサイーのギタールです。 セクシイ。 もっとセクシイ。
もっと愛してる、キラさん！！！ (^▽^;) ～＜３