Hi:) Day 2 here!
At least it last for 2 days lol
Today I finally saw Tomoho! Since she has been absent for two days, and it came weekend, I haven't saw her. So as soon as I saw her, I got up from a chair and run into her lol
cuz, for me, it was insane, strange, weird not to see her that long. I was so happy to see her.
we talked about many things at the same table on the 6th floor as usual.
then Yuka came in and we headed to 7 11 to get a ice cream:)
I like it, walking to 7 11 under the strong summer sun, talking about dumb things, taking pictures.
the third period, YES, one of my favorite class, one of my favorite teacher's class, 'Cognitive linguistics'!
Last year, he taught me in grammar class. It is not like because I like the contents of the class, it more like his personality i think.
Every time I can feel that he kindly tries to make the class more fun, more enjoyable. His natural personality is so cute (sorry I should not use Cute for a professor, but he really is). I guess he doesn't intend to be funny, but in real, his little comment or words, so always makes us laugh. Although the contents that we are studying are kinda difficult to understand, I still enjoy his class.
And that is why I always sit in the very front row. the position is easy to take the floor. He check the name of the person who take the floor as a volunteer point, so it is important point.
At the fourth period, I had a Listening class.
Because it was a open class day, there are some students and parents coming to see the class. But, as it was a Listening class, there's nothing really attractive thing, we just test the vocabulary each other to remember and listening to the lecture by CD.
As soon as we started vocabulary practice, all the visitors gone lol
Last years Listening class test was really easy, because it was Bob, you know, he doesn't like formal thing. But this year, it doesn't seem to go as last year. I think I need to cover the lecture again. But if I spend little bit of time to cover the materials, i think I can pass:) So why not ?
Hi!
You know, during the last spring vacation, I tried to keep a diary everyday.
but as you know I could not keep doing it, I ended up quieting like in the first 2 week or so. Mainly because I had nothing to write,
come on, as I said it was during spring vacation, what did I write except part time job lol
I've felt strongly that I need to improve my output skill, and I have been realized that I have to work on it, but i was like Okay,I will do something soon I will do soon...
Then, finally i start writing English now, not until less than 45 days before I go to Canada.
Please, hit me someone this lazy girl!
Hope it is going to last through the day I go to Canada.
Okay, today I am going to write about my recent feeling.
(I'm not sure if I should use will or be going to in above situation, you know, when you learned something little bit deeply, it sometimes makes you more confused)
At the end of last month, I finally satisfied a condition of a exchange program.
And last week, I received a TOEIC score and the result was no that bad. Actually, it was better than I was expected. The score increased about 60 from last test.
Of course, these fact obviously made me kinda in high spirits, but at the same time my anxiety and worry for studying in Canada were getting bigger and bigger, because ending these test meant that it was getting close to the day I go to Canada.
So this past three months I have felt depressed. and I didn't like it.
Why?
Because it was literally my big dream, my one of goal.I have been dreamed this since when I was in junior high. I was so excited when I just thought of it or read students blogs written about their school life abroad .
But what about now? Am I excited? Not at all.
I become anxious day by day.
i wondered why I felt this way cuz i thought it was too bad to think like that. You know, I got so excited by just thinking of me studying abroad until about last year. Why do I have to feel this way? why don't I enjoy this situation? why am I not excited right now, knowing that I finally am going to Canada?
I found two reasons for it and thought the solutions.
Firstly, because I am not confident about my English skill although I passed the TOEFL test.
Secondly, Because I know that I am not good at making new friend.
The solution for the first reason is simple. Just study. it just up to me.there is no other way to deal with it. So that is why I'm currently restart this blog in English. I know, it is kinda too late to realize, but it is no use saying such a thing, try or not, I will do this anyway.
The solution for the second reason, actually I could not find the good one. I cannot think of other than doing image training, simulating the first day of Canada in my head. But again, I found that it would also be important if I have enough English skill or not. So anyway, I will do my best to improve my English skill, especially speaking skill.
Now, i feel little bit better, because I found the answer, now, I know what I need to do.
As I am a huge music lover, I always get help from songs. Today, I listened to the songs which I used to listen to when I was junior high. Wow. Music is amazing. They have such a strong power. They reminded me of the feelings i had when I was excited to study, thinking of my future life in high school. Those flash back memories and songs made me calm down and also reminded me of the excitement which I had for studying abroad.
I am sure music will help me after I arrive in Canada.
The paragraphs above is not organized and just mess, but those are definitely what I was thinking this past three months.
Hopefully it will go all well in Canada.
I wish future me great luck!
OMG, it took me about one hour and half to write this down.
I've gotta go bed!
いつの間にか春休み終わってて、2年の前期も折り返し地点を超えました。
2月からは週一でマークのオフィスに通い、リーディングたくさんしました。
たくさん本も読みました。
ずーっと！はやく学校始まれ〜〜！って思ってて、やっとバイトが終わって、2年前期の授業が始まって、いつの間にかマークとの勉強会が人数増えて。
本当は入る資格のないリーディングのクラスにも聴講生として入れてもらって。
マークが交渉しに行ってくれて、そのあとオフィスにお願いしますって言いに行った時に、「単位取れないけどいいの？もし取るなら他の学生のように予習必要だし、同じように扱うよ？」ってすごく意思確認されたけど、今は取って本当に良かったと思ってます。
2年の〜4年生で構成されてて毎回多くても５人くらいしかいない笑
リーディングアサイメントも、毎週色んな分野のニュースを知ることができて、とても取る価値のあるクラスだと思います。
なにより、先生も面白いから授業が毎回とても楽しい。
今学期かなりお気に入りのクラス。
そして６月の終わりには、ゼミについてオフィス訪問しました。
説明会には留学のため出れないので、事前に聞きに回ったのですが、とても迷う、！！
とりあえず、気になってた３つのゼミは、後期の授業を取らなくても頑張れば入れるとわかったので頑張りたいと思います！
そして、６月15日に条件クリアしなければならないTOEFLを受けました！
去年の秋が520点で、550には届かなかったので、今回絶対に超えなければならなかったのですが、、、
今回は！、、
557点！！！！
ギリギリです(;^_^A
良かったあああああああ！
研究所の方に報告しに行った時に、2人とも安心してくれて、一緒に喜んでくれて嬉しかったです。
放課後ラウンジで勉強してる時や、休みの日にラウンジに来てる時にたまに会ってたので、
「いつも遅くまで勉強してたもんね、よかった」
って言っていただけてあああ頑張ってきてよかったと思いました。
引き続き勉強頑張りたいと思います！
まずは明日のTOEIC！笑
プレースメントに使うけど、留学行くのでクラス関係ないんですけどね笑
とりあえず上がってることを祈ります。
カナダまであと59日！
1番前にのるね！って前日に約束するのに、
当日に 一番端と一番端の車両に乗っちゃうのやめたい笑
すごいよ～！！
That was amazing, incredible としか言いようないよ！
もう待ちくたびれて死ぬかと思った😇
美味しいかどうかはいまいちわからなかったけど、
普段マックしか食べない私には食べ方難しかったです笑
ちさとと決めたこと
・各国のFoodパーティーする
・クリスマスにみんなでクリスマスセーター着る
・4月に美容室に連れて行ってもらう
・7月の世界のフードフェスタみたいのに行く
ぐらいかなぁ
とりあえず、いろんなことに参加したいんです！
来月はいよいよ牧場！たのしみ！
さて、そろそろベットから出ます笑
昨日の夜作った炊き込み御飯食べよ笑
やっと地獄のバイト5連勤が終わって、
今新町駅に来てます。
はい！そうです！
ちさとと5Seconds Of Summerのライブに行ってきます❤️
武道館！
初です！！
去年、初めて彼らが来たのも2月の24日ぐらいで、
25がわたしの大学の2次試験だったんですね笑
気が気じゃ無かったです笑
去年の2次試験は
大学の待合室が6階のラウンジだったんですけど、
みんな座って最終確認とか、ノートみたりしてるのに、
わたしだけずっとTwitterみて彼らの情報を更新してました笑笑笑
だって、その日、スッキリに生出演で、
Don't Stopを演奏したんですよ？！！！
その時、今度は絶対に行ってやる～！！！！！！！ってすっごく悔しかったので、今回行けてすっごく嬉しいです❤️
ちさとと楽しんできます！
あと、カナダのわたしが行くところマイナス何度とかだから、冬服いっぱい今のうちに買っておかなきゃ！笑
Sounds Good Feels Good聞いていってきまーす！