debts

aaah, there's so many debts i have.. (∩´Д`)=3

yeah i know i have to pay my debts..
but i'm such a very moody person.. and doing everything based on my mood..
i know it's bad, but i can't handle.. x)

well, the hardest part is to begin, and to force myself to begin paying my debts *laugh*

okay, here is my debt list i must pay as soon as possible:
1. a drawing of my friend and her spouse requested as a wedding gift
2. a drawing of my friend's face, requested for his collection
(note: i'm not really good in drawing actually, and as for me, i don't really want having my face in pencil drawing.. and i don't really know why they want to have their face in drawing.. -___-")
3. a story requested by Lita - final part
4. a story requested by yo (but i forget what kind of topic.. xDD)
5. a story requested by rinchan (about evil-good twin)


my mood vaporize in a second, and it takes (perhaps) years to get it back (laugh)

i really need mood-booster to do those things..

*yawn*

migraine

today


is


migraine


day


4.


headache.


head-ache.


hotel echo alpha delta alpha charlie hotel echo.


H-E-A-D-A-C-H-E! (=_____________=)

evil

feeling so tired lately.. ｡･ﾟ･(ﾉA`)･ﾟ

since my parents came back home from Yogyakarta, i officially don't have time to relax or just leyeh2 in my precious Kapuk island a.k.a bed.. not even to collect my soul when i wake up every morning or to regain my power as i come back from work that i've been struggling with the traffic.. (∩´Д`)=3

and i often can't go online at night.. i rarely have time just to tweet or to check my facebook since my mother make me very busy with her schedule..
or when i have the time when my parents are sleeping, i'm also very sleepy and powerless..
but in the morning, i don't feel fresh and always sleepless eventhough i have enough (or even, more) time of sleeping.. so i think it triggers my migraine these last 3 days.. (¯―¯٥)

so, lately, i usually browse while i'm in the office..


aaaand....
this morning, i saw another post update from "that group" again.. and was still talking about "that book"..
after the post of an announcement that one of their-fave-guy is releasing a book, i think they really will shut the group..
but until now, they still don't shut the group! xDDD

they are so busy about the book, while me, i have my own lovely world.. it's not that i don't love that world.. still, mystery and unsolved mystery is my interest.. before and after i found that blog..

so, one of the member of the group which is that cat-hater-girl-who-think-i'm-her-never-ending-rival, make a quiz, prizes "the book"!
the question is (and as i thought, it's so cliche): how did you find "that blog"?

me, giggling and thinking:

what if i'm saying "i was searching for the world to escape and was trying to make someone jealous but then i felt stupid since i failed?"

i failed to make that someone jealous i mean.. x))

and also, i'd like to add, "it's also my reason why i stop reading and commenting the blog"..

i'd really love to do it.. it really tempting........ *daydreaming*

but, i'm still thinking..
they know me as the way i wanted them to know me.
they won't think i really have "evil" inside me.
i was one of that cute-sweet-innocent-yet-kind fans and reader. (yeah, haha)

if only i can use my vampire identity to give comment of how boring that community is......
and i also want to mock and quip them, saying: "why the heck you guys don't shut the group yet??! your 2-months-ago-announcement has been so rotten to death!"

LOL!


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okay..
no, i won't do that..
of course it's all only in my evil mind.. x))

well, we all have "the other side, ne?"




and eventhough i turned my notification off but the update still appears on my news feed.. (;´·`)