Despair shuts me off from emotion.
There is absolutely nothing in the heart.
No feeling.
Maybe it's not entirely correct.
There is something which acknowledges the emotion.
Sadness, powerlessness, sorrow, anger, pity, misery and all that.
It's an inch ahead to be affected by it.
It's a thin line to fall for it.
And then something shuts me off.
Pride? Maybe.
I'm in the middle of situation I can't take it well.
And experiencing this no feeling. And then I realize the existence of
fifth element.
My emotion is about to explode,
My brain is searching for the best solution for the situation,
My body is selfishly asking for food, and
My spirit is miles away to go help someone I care a lot.
And the fifth existence observes everything and try to balance it.
Extremely calm and in control.
This can choose which way I fall, which ones to combine,
which one to suppress it at this moment.
Calm and many ways extremely cold.
But this brings everything together and prioritize who and what's
important.
My emotion, brain, desire or spirit doesn't matter in front of it.