goodbyes always hurt

i dont do relationships.

i mean i cant do relationships.

whenever it starts to get serious, i get so scared

so scared of losing him

but even more scared of being more scared

so i let it go

i break up

piss the one who i love and who loves me off

the broken hearts cant be repaired by the one who broke it

they find somebody else to fix it up for

i get sad and depressed but dont dare show them how im feeling inside

and start the new heartless date, started to get involved, get scared and break-up

how long am i going to do this?

how many times am i going to repeat this?

history repeats itself?

oh well that prolly just explains

god im cruel

partie hardie

the oc is reallllllly addicting

ive been watching it for 10hrs straight and my eyes are red but i still watch

im on season2 episode3.

its not that bad eh considering i started to watch it three days ago...

ah im pathetic

i have no life

but its just so much fun

and marissa's hair inspired me!

im getting bangs!!! yayyy!!!!!

so okay ive been really boring recently

im really glad to hear everyones "call me when you decide to become fun again :P" shittieees

thanks you every much bitchesss!!!!! LOL

i kinda miss my "partie hardie" spirit too......haha

but im gonna be a goodie-goodie as long as possible WATCH ME!

dont waste water. drink vodka. um no

i dont drink much. no for real. i dont really enjoy drinking.

people see me and say im lying about not being an "alcoholic"

but seriously i hate what alcohols do to people

they make you do the craziest thing.

and i hate waking up in the morning thinking "where the hell am i? what the heck happened?"

and i HATE guys who try to take advantages of those drunk girls

um little bit of respect here?

those pathetic guys who cant get on a girl w/ a help of an alcohol. ugh they bother me so much.

im kind of an old fashion. fine. laugh it up.

but one of my friends got knocked up. now shes a mom. whos the father? nobody knows.

its just so sad to see that kind of things happening.

ugh k i dont know what my point is. as always. riiight

gotta go to bed

one last thing. my drink of choice is redbull. im wild i know. lol