A day without motivation in this kind of life is like a day not really lived. A day wasted. A day overcast with clouds that hang so low in the sky that you carry them on your shoulders.
Motivation manifests itself.
It becomes something that eats time, as you end up studying, training, practicing, dieting, or just plain working hard.
It becomes something that pushes away depression, as you can only focus on what is ahead, and not behind.
It becomes something intangible, as it gives you a clear mind, a stronger heart, a burning sun inside of you that keeps you running.
You need to find what gives you motivation, even if it comes at a price. You save nothing by not paying that price as it gets spent through wasted time, or lost in terms of potential.
I can't waste anymore time or potential.