breakup

in the long long end of the story,

we broke up, and i lost

the feeling is really strnage,

just like what i said

imagine he and his cousin stand together

my heart is stirred by something

something want to drop down from my eyes

i dont know why, but the strange feeling

does make me so much sad

i said before maybe i can tale him back when i go sydney

but it seems impossible because he might be put in the jail

so the best way is give him up totally.

just like what he said, bye forever

oh damn i really dont want to say bye to him

what should i do now?

i so much miss him now

but we will not meet again

its really a sad story

i have no idea what to do next

the sad

Kim is not good this week. why?

first, teacher's anger

second, school pressure

third, boyfriend's relation

teacher shouted to us and said,

"you are nonsense, you made me disappointed again and again,

i dont want to pay too much time to you."

see, it is terrible. and that is why i feel sad. I do study and I do get good grades, so I do know he is not saying me. But I feel sad because we made him angry. I really dont want to see him cry again.

then, he said we are selfish, and he hates those selfish people. i am scared i am, so i tried and tried to proove i am not selfish. but does he know? i dont know. i dont want him give up on us, any one of us could not be given up.

the last meeting with my boyfriend is august 20th. yesterday, he got on a chatroom where we met first. when i found he was there, i tried to chat with him. so i emailed himand left message on the chatroom. i even entered and left all rooms, just wanted to know where he was. i found one lady who is 33 year old. so i asked her to go on every room to help me seek him. cuz im 17 only, some rooms r adult room. sad to say, when i was talking with her, he logged out. So i asked that tell him kim is missing him if he is online.

i wish my dreams can come true. i still want to get first position in school. i still want to see my teachers be happy. I still want to be in love with him (he is too wonderful for me to leave.)

so bless me, so help me (of course, i will help myself too)

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