Moi
I'm in love with a Finnish girl now <33 lol
Yeah, again Finnish..haha
I can't help it buddy.
Sorry for being lazy these days. Love people :) I'll up again soon I think.. byee
Yeah, again Finnish..haha
I can't help it buddy.
Sorry for being lazy these days. Love people :) I'll up again soon I think.. byee
This Year
For me everything was new. Living alone, going to University...
For the year, I learned so many things from a lot of stuffs.
The baddest thing ever I experienced, also happiest thing I experienced.
As you can see this year has big meaning. Totally affected my life.
I got exhausted sometimes but every time, there were my friends next to me. Even when I was Finland and got nervous, my Turkish friend encouraged me.
All I can say is that everything I could make it was just thanks to my friends, that's it. Sometimes I lost myself and give the mean phrase but I'm usually just a weak boy.
For this year, I met new guys. Especially what I met my Finnish ex girlfriend made my life change completely.
Sometimes I'm still thinking about her like how she's doing or something like that. yeah I know this is not my business but somehow I feel lovely sometimes. I don't know why, have no idea what it's because of.
I've been to Inari Shrine a week ago and then I remembered her suddenly.
Not like missing or but somehow I felt like being back the days when I was saving up money.
So much I can write here about bad things or good thing but not anymore :(
But no way I can't stop comparing with the ex when I've got a romance with the other girls because of the love I felt from her. I really hate to get such feelings actually.
Felt like.. something new looks better but also don't wanna trash the old one. Moreover if I have to choose the new one or the old one, then I will take the old one.
Maybe I don't like a change much.
It's really time to wash away everything because I met you.
Including her I think I won't see some guys again but don't feel sad or missing because you guys are alive. I'm just imagining how you guys are doing that makes me feel like I'm close to you :) Living in somewhere is also living in my head.
But I lost a friend from my head. Her life stopped though so many ways are there around her.. But yeah I've made a decision to look forward so don't sink into the deep sadness anymore :)
大学に入ってから一年以上経った。
なんやかんやブログを書こうという気が起きなくて、今寝れずに書いている。
正直去年一年は自分の想像を遥かに裏切った年だった。良い意味でも悪い意味でも。いろんな奴と出会ったし、話したし、いろんな経験もした。
笑うことも多かったし、泣くこともあった年だった。毎年改めて思い知らされることは俺は友達無しじゃなにも出来ないということ。もし一人も友達がおらず家族の支えもなく、ただ学校とバイトをする日々を送ってたのなら、恐らく自殺してたんやろうなぁ～と、本気で思った。
俺は今でも毎日浜須賀の友達と出かけたり、笑ったことを思い出すし、その一方で大阪で出会った友達と笑ってる。去年、まだ大学生になりたての頃なんかは、いつも 地元の友達が一番で、あいつらさえいればいいと思ってた。けどこうやって環境が変わり一年が経つと自然とそんな馬鹿げた比較はしなくなってた。
俺は今でも地元の友達大好きだし、ほんとの親友だと思ってる！でも大学で知り合った奴らも、フィンランドで知り合った奴らも俺は大好きや。
今はとりあえず目の前の壁からぶっ潰して、なるべく早い段階で将来のビジョンを作ろ(^-^)/
一緒に笑ってるこの日々が将来の宝になるのは間違いねえな(^｡^)
振り返ってみて俺の人生こんなもんで十分ハッピーや
ただほんまに自殺だけはやめろ！飛び降りたりする勇気はあるのに、この先死ぬ気で生きる勇気はないんか？
自分で自分をバカにするな！死んだあとみんなに泣かれてる姿を想像してどう思うんやろ。そういう時だけみんなから思われて幸せなんか？
けどだからって死ぬな！そんな根性ある奴やったら親友だってできるはず。
人にはいろんな死に方がある、けど自殺は別モンや。自分の腕とか傷つけるやつもやめろ、みっともない！
死ぬ気で悩みをぶつけたこともないクセに誰も理解してくれないとか思うな。なんなら俺が全部聞いたる。
人間てそーゆうもんやで。
自殺をする人がいなくなりますように！！
また暇な時に更新しま～す
For the year, I learned so many things from a lot of stuffs.
The baddest thing ever I experienced, also happiest thing I experienced.
As you can see this year has big meaning. Totally affected my life.
I got exhausted sometimes but every time, there were my friends next to me. Even when I was Finland and got nervous, my Turkish friend encouraged me.
All I can say is that everything I could make it was just thanks to my friends, that's it. Sometimes I lost myself and give the mean phrase but I'm usually just a weak boy.
For this year, I met new guys. Especially what I met my Finnish ex girlfriend made my life change completely.
Sometimes I'm still thinking about her like how she's doing or something like that. yeah I know this is not my business but somehow I feel lovely sometimes. I don't know why, have no idea what it's because of.
I've been to Inari Shrine a week ago and then I remembered her suddenly.
Not like missing or but somehow I felt like being back the days when I was saving up money.
So much I can write here about bad things or good thing but not anymore :(
But no way I can't stop comparing with the ex when I've got a romance with the other girls because of the love I felt from her. I really hate to get such feelings actually.
Felt like.. something new looks better but also don't wanna trash the old one. Moreover if I have to choose the new one or the old one, then I will take the old one.
Maybe I don't like a change much.
It's really time to wash away everything because I met you.
Including her I think I won't see some guys again but don't feel sad or missing because you guys are alive. I'm just imagining how you guys are doing that makes me feel like I'm close to you :) Living in somewhere is also living in my head.
But I lost a friend from my head. Her life stopped though so many ways are there around her.. But yeah I've made a decision to look forward so don't sink into the deep sadness anymore :)
大学に入ってから一年以上経った。
なんやかんやブログを書こうという気が起きなくて、今寝れずに書いている。
正直去年一年は自分の想像を遥かに裏切った年だった。良い意味でも悪い意味でも。いろんな奴と出会ったし、話したし、いろんな経験もした。
笑うことも多かったし、泣くこともあった年だった。毎年改めて思い知らされることは俺は友達無しじゃなにも出来ないということ。もし一人も友達がおらず家族の支えもなく、ただ学校とバイトをする日々を送ってたのなら、恐らく自殺してたんやろうなぁ～と、本気で思った。
俺は今でも毎日浜須賀の友達と出かけたり、笑ったことを思い出すし、その一方で大阪で出会った友達と笑ってる。去年、まだ大学生になりたての頃なんかは、いつも 地元の友達が一番で、あいつらさえいればいいと思ってた。けどこうやって環境が変わり一年が経つと自然とそんな馬鹿げた比較はしなくなってた。
俺は今でも地元の友達大好きだし、ほんとの親友だと思ってる！でも大学で知り合った奴らも、フィンランドで知り合った奴らも俺は大好きや。
今はとりあえず目の前の壁からぶっ潰して、なるべく早い段階で将来のビジョンを作ろ(^-^)/
一緒に笑ってるこの日々が将来の宝になるのは間違いねえな(^｡^)
振り返ってみて俺の人生こんなもんで十分ハッピーや
ただほんまに自殺だけはやめろ！飛び降りたりする勇気はあるのに、この先死ぬ気で生きる勇気はないんか？
自分で自分をバカにするな！死んだあとみんなに泣かれてる姿を想像してどう思うんやろ。そういう時だけみんなから思われて幸せなんか？
けどだからって死ぬな！そんな根性ある奴やったら親友だってできるはず。
人にはいろんな死に方がある、けど自殺は別モンや。自分の腕とか傷つけるやつもやめろ、みっともない！
死ぬ気で悩みをぶつけたこともないクセに誰も理解してくれないとか思うな。なんなら俺が全部聞いたる。
人間てそーゆうもんやで。
自殺をする人がいなくなりますように！！
また暇な時に更新しま～す
hello guys. I'm back.
What a lazy guy I am!?
Yeah sorry I didn't up the blog for awhile..
No special reason actually. I was just busy for playing and something (y)
Okay so, simply I tell you what I did for the spring vacation.
I was looking for the new job for saving money but it wasn't going well. I was like oh my fuckin god I have nothing to do even tho I have money to do something.. cause the town is soo boring!!
So I've been back to my hometown to do SOMETHING fun with my guys.
That was maybe around middle of February I guess.
Yeah and then anyway I was drinking almost everyday. All night long.
And finally I've experienced throwing up coz of alcohol. Honestly I got negative against alcohol since I threw up a bit. A week later, I got crazy to alcohol again tho (y)
As you can see I could've fun with my bros sooooooo much.
And about a month later I came back here, Osaka. Because of my part time job and a party (追いコン in Japanese).
It's like... to celebrate our seniors graduation.
And a week later
Finally! we have been to Kyushu!
Yeah we had been planning the trip several month ago.
So many troubles we faced in the trip but yeah I think we could've made it smoothly and had fun enough :)
And one of my bestfriends moved to Kyoto from my hometown! cause he passed the entrance exam of university. That was the biggest pleasure actually :)
I don't have to miss my hometown anymore lol
That's all.
My boring day has began again!
So I will up the blog constantly probably!
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Yeah sorry I didn't up the blog for awhile..
No special reason actually. I was just busy for playing and something (y)
Okay so, simply I tell you what I did for the spring vacation.
I was looking for the new job for saving money but it wasn't going well. I was like oh my fuckin god I have nothing to do even tho I have money to do something.. cause the town is soo boring!!
So I've been back to my hometown to do SOMETHING fun with my guys.
That was maybe around middle of February I guess.
Yeah and then anyway I was drinking almost everyday. All night long.
And finally I've experienced throwing up coz of alcohol. Honestly I got negative against alcohol since I threw up a bit. A week later, I got crazy to alcohol again tho (y)
As you can see I could've fun with my bros sooooooo much.
And about a month later I came back here, Osaka. Because of my part time job and a party (追いコン in Japanese).
It's like... to celebrate our seniors graduation.
And a week later
Finally! we have been to Kyushu!
Yeah we had been planning the trip several month ago.
So many troubles we faced in the trip but yeah I think we could've made it smoothly and had fun enough :)
And one of my bestfriends moved to Kyoto from my hometown! cause he passed the entrance exam of university. That was the biggest pleasure actually :)
I don't have to miss my hometown anymore lol
That's all.
My boring day has began again!
So I will up the blog constantly probably!
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee