Mortal Emotions
Staring blankly O_O
Thoughts of what went wrong with me came in.. There is nowhere for me to escape, to hide..
Everywhere seems so wrong for me to be..
After such a long time, i realize i am just one pathetic being...
Whenever there is a crisis, i got no one to seek to; no one to run to...
「Why」 i always ask.. Am i always to endure all these within me and get it over
I wanted to shout, to say, to scream, that i am in fact not fucking strong but why, things just got stuck in my throat and dissolved..
Why again, no one believes me when i always said that? Is it my aura that gives out always so different then what i am?
I put up a strong and brave front to everyone..i seriously hope i can lead someone somehow..
Guess i am nothing but a pure failure..
I did my best to hold it all in but probably there is a limit within myself and i always overdo without realizing it till i am feeling so restless to the verge of breaking down..
Someone ask me before, 「is it worth it for all these?」
i replied, 「yes」 as long as i can bring a smile to someone, no matter what cost it will take me, i am willing to go for it as long as the person is worth it..
I am wrong.. In the end, i am just another prick, acting all mighty when i am just a trash on its own causing unnecessary burden and pain to others..
I shouldnt have existed... To anyone here or there.. o(；△；)o
I deserve to be left alone and handle only myself
Serves me right for butting in to anything or anyone.. Serves me right to be on the verge of destruction by my own means..
Yes, serves me right..
Let me be off on my own and probably find back my emotion-less to all p(^-^)q
久しぶり～
Overstress in a big lot (ノ◇≦。)
Imma now trying to calm myself down but it aint helping at all..
i tired crying but no tears fall... I tried drinking but imma never get drunk~ (￣∩￣#
WHY??!!
I realize imma just some random stranger who roam the street aimlessly..
My world is never filled with light and i am trying so hard that imma on the verge of destruction..
In reality, who really knows?
Mask is tough.. I know but does u mofo, realize that having a happy mask(hiding all) is even harder?
Just cuz imma filled with pride and confidence, (^人^)
i will try to swallow everything on my own without bothering others but in fact i am really in pain~
Who knows? But nevermind!!
Actually fact is, imma fucking fragile but who knows? No one.. (^_^)v
Darkness evolved me.....
I doubt i will recover...................................
Unless u give me a year time or more (TωT)
Maybe~~~
