why I have to get hurt? why just me??
I found my mind when I went to ur place last time...that is Im not in love with you anymore. because your act distroyed my love little by little.
I dont want to be involved in any stupid problems you can make one after another. as well as this, Im not ur housemaid dont want to take care of you when you are drunken or when you need me. evey time when you are in a defiant manner for someone I am the one have to apologize to them. Im tired of being called in the early morning on the way to your house from clubs and saying you want to see me and taking me to your flat. Im fed up with your thinking which you just think yourself, some times you care about me but take precedence yourself first. the last time you knew I was in very low spirits and was not ok. even though I was like that, you had priority yourself; didnt respect me at all; and wanted to do what you want. you dont know how much I got hurt through your behavior.
you told me you wuold stop drinking and womanizing, just concentrate on your study. but I know the very next day you had drink and took some girl to your place. you told me many lies because you just believe that I dont know anything. actually I know it, I had some evidence of that. you had better not underestimate girls.
and now; from after knowing Im going back to my country, you told me you are missing me. and want me to go out with you again. what the fuck is that? Im not a whore of yours. if you want some girls, go somewhere and pick up some, you are good looking so naughty beautiful girls will follow you. but not me. Im fed up with you.
I want to tell you but Im sure you cannot understand what Im saying. Im disgusted with this, when I talk to you, you never understand me. I never use any academic words but you never get it. thats why I didnt say anything last time. now Im so sick of you. I dont want to listen your disgusting tens of thousands of grammatical error in english. I know we make mistakes in languages even its our mother tongue but you made mistakes too much and never learn.
these are why Im not in love with you anymore, my love is somewhere else. many times I thought I wish I could have met that guy before I met you......
Im upset now. I wanna tell you this but I cant... I dont wanna hurt you.... because I know how painfull when we get hurt... how can I do?