i knew this would happen. so lame. haha.
whenever i really truly think i fall in love.
whenever there is some sort of doll involved.
it is always me who ends up heartbroken.
jinxed?
i don't know.
finally there is a closure. but why do i still check her facebook, wait for a phone call, reach out to the phone card, look for her online?
i knew i was obsessed, i knew that it would be me who was obsessed.
i know she is with someone else.
because who and what is there to "ask her"?
i keep eating, dont want to eat.
keep me away from food so that i wont eat. then get skinny. look better.
and then in march i will show her what she is missing on.
inside im just wishing she will come back to me. beg for me back.
but i dont want that to happen. i dont want to go through it again. dont want to be stuck in the past.
dont want to be heartbroken again.
but i do.
dont know what to do. oh lord, someone good must appear in front of me take my breathe away care for me more than she did.
because im stupid i think too much and i love too hard.
this will take time, definitely.
sigh, still misses and loves you lots.
lame. shut me up, seriously