I am a person who has a lot of temptation. So I always feel unhappy.
Maybe the week before last, I was very unhappy because of the jealous for a girl who even doesn't know me or know anything about me. I envied her so much for she can fullfill my dream which I can't do at the same age. That is study abroad. Maybe someone around me just regard me as a successful woman, but I know it is not enough. All I do now is to achieve the aim to have a tour in Japan. When I heard that this girl , whose mother is my mother's friend, and should be as poor as her, just get such a good chance, however, for myself, just several dozens of thousands of money , I have to work so hard, nearly have no time to rest, make me feel unfair. Why people like me who is ambitious and intelligent , with fulll ability to study abroad , can't get a equal opportulity as them. That's why I am very unhappy.
And I even argued with my mum for this . I maybe hurt her. But I can't control myself. I need someone to pay for my sadness.
Then , I telphoned my father. He gave me a lot of advices and I cheered up again.
Maybe , all I need is a reason for working hard.
All I need is a hope, which is in front of me, and make me feel it is worth working hard.
So , everyone who wants to ruin it will not be forgiven.