目を背けない

また虐待事件があったね。

3歳の子。

お腹空いてただろうね…

おかあさんを待ってたよね…

こういうニュースを見るたびに感じる悲しさ、悔しさ、無力さ、憤り。

なんて母親なの。

可哀想に…

私に何か出来ることないのかな。

もうこういうニュース聞くの嫌だ。

とにかく今は心よりご冥福をお祈りいたします。

助けてあげられなくてごめんね。

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こんな毎日に

35

It’s been how many years since I last wrote.... no suprise. This happens all the time.

I forget my password and login anymore or I simply become lazy.

But these days I’ve had thoughts in my mind I want to share.

Not really share.... but write. For myself and for anyone who may be feeling the same way as me.

In these few years I became a wife and then a mother of two lovely girls.

They are my life now and I love them to the max.

I just want sometimes for a place to be myself. A place to be called by my name rather than Mama or Mommy.

I want to shine again. Nothing special but a place to be me. Just simply me with no strings attached.

35! A new year. A new age. 

Here I come world. Let’s see what I can do.