Harry Potter!

I'm so excited to see the new Harry Potter movie! I'm going to the midnight premiere with my bestie. I really can't wait. No one fully understands how much I LOVE Harry Potter. Not just the movies, but the books as well. I've read the whole series more than once and I still never get tired of them. I will probably end up seeing the movie in theaters more than once, but I'm okay with that. I'm always in the mood to watch Harry Potter! ('-^*)/





I am really looking forward to my Thanksgiving break. My school has a few more days off than most colleges for Thanksgiving, so I'm happy about that. I really just want to stay at home for a day or two and relax. Between work and school, I never have any down time to myself. My only day off is Sunday, and lately I have been hanging out with friends or something. I really just want to stay at home for a whole day and sleep in, play video games, and watch movies. That sounds really good right about now. I love seeing my friends, but sometimes I really just need some time to be alone.

I don't know anymore. . . (ﾉ_･｡)

So, I have not updated in a long time. I sort of gave up on my Ameba because I've been all sad lately. Back in the beginning of October, my boyfriend broke up with me. I am alone again. Ever since then, I've just been so down. And I have sort of given up on trying. I don't bother putting any effort into the things I do, like my school work, my relationships with other people, and even my appearance. Lately, I have been doing is working and going to school. Yep, that's right, I have two jobs now. I clean houses and I also work at a German bar/restaurant. They're not the best jobs, but at least I have some money now.





It just really sucks that I'm back in this mood. I don't care about anything anymore. I feel like I am not good enough for anyone. I don't even have any friends in school. And its not like I haven't tried talking to people and making friends, because I have tried. But no one likes me, or so it seems. I still have my old friends, but I never really see them. The only person I hang out with regularly is my friend Jacob, but that is because he lives so close to me that its easy to see him a lot.

It just seems like everything I once held dear is falling apart. I feel more alone now than ever before. I don't mean to sound emotional or whatever, but its legitimately how I feel. All I can think about is the past and how things used to be, and how I was happy. I don't want to go into detail too much about why I feel this way because it is personal. But ever since October, things have been slowly deteriorating.





The only bright side is my jobs and how I am making money. So far, I have bought an iPod touch, Nintendo64 along with some N64 games, a couple new DS games, a new winter coat, and some cute phone charms among other things. I love being able to spend my own money on whatever I want. I really, really, really want to buy myself new clothes, but Christmas is coming up and I want to be able to buy gifts for my little sister, my dad, and a couple of friends. But I desperately need new clothes. I feel like I wear the same thing everyday. And tell me why all my jeans rip right in the crotch?? I only have two pairs of jeans, so I think that a few new pairs should be one of the first things I buy when I go clothes shopping. I wish I had someone to go to the mall with. I've asked a few of my friends to go with me, but no one seems interested. I don't want to go shopping by myself though, because that's no fun. Hopefully I will find someone soon.

Birthday! ❤

August 31st was my 18th birthday! It was one of the nicest birthdays I have ever had. I spent the whole day with my boyfriend! It was really nice since I don't get to see him very often. I got to his house really early in the morning, so we ended up falling asleep for a few hours. But later on, we went to the mall. He bought me a My Melody build-a-bear! ♪(*^ ・^)ノ⌒☆ It was my first build-a-bear ever, too. Its so cute! And he also bought me a Mickey Mouse pull over ～ And after, we saw the movie Scott Pilgrim. I really liked the movie. It was really cute, and so funny.







My little sister also got me some nice birthday gifts. She bought me some strawberry Pocky and a Smiths cd. I was really surprised! And she also wrote me a silly birthday poem:

"Happy Birthday! We need to take birthday pics! Bake a cake just for you. Angela, your Andy's boo!!!! I love you too. Hope you enjoy The Smiths CD. And the Pocky, the gifts from me. Let's all take a birthday walk. Maybe I can draw a birthday card with chalk.The day is ending. Go ...practice your pillow bending!"

Now that my birthday has come and gone, it really feels like summer is over. In just a few days, I will be in school. I'm so nervous! ! I am not looking forward to going. . . but at least I will have some friends from high school at college.

Ahh, tomorrow will be fun though! I am going to spend the day with my mom and little sister. And my mom is going to take us out to eat and we are going to the mall too. It seems like whenever I go out, I am at the mall haha. I guess shopping is one of my hobbies. . . (｀・ω・´)ゞ