Wasting timE

to USE time is often HARD enough,

to WASTE it on the other hand is so often EASIER.

don't ask ME why, you should know BETTER.

i am very much AWARE of this but still,

i can't SEEM to not WASTING it.

it's probably my WORST problem at the MOMENT.

the LESSER the time i have,

the BETTER i tend to work on the THINGS that need to be DONE.

but the SHORTER it gets,

the more i feel like CRYING out LOUD for more time please, GOD.

bet GOD must be laughing HIS head off watching me

WASTING my time just like that.

HE must be shaking HIS head saying things like,

LOOK at her, she doesn't even APPRECIATE time!

she OUGHT to be taught a LESSON on what's gonna happen if

she meddle with TIME.

NO matter how hard i work towards the end,

time will keep PASS through me.

and i will never EVER be able to run AFTER it.

Equally uniquE

there are THINGS in life we can't talk about

even with the CLOSEST person we have in our lives.

and that's including our own PARENTS.

hard to believe but somehow it is TRUE.

perhaps when i have my OWN kid/kids someday,

i WILL be facing the same kind of fact.

facts that there is gap between US,

that no matter how HARD we try to pull

ourselves TOGETHER,

the single TRUTH is, we are looking at the

same issue with different PERCEPTIONS.

i hold this VIEW while you hold another

view completely DIFFERENT from mine.

i USED to not get this part or this particular bit

in LIFE.

these DAYS though, i think i see the picture clearer

than before. much better than when i was BACK there.

in the END of the day,

we are equally UNIQUE individuals who certainly

think things DIFFERENTLY without us knowing.

Wish i coulD

i REALIZED one thing apart from some other things.

the OLDER you get, the harder to find someone

to talk to or to TALK with.

had no idea it would turn out this HARD afterall.

what would you do when you really NEED someone

to talk to but there's just no ONE around.

i haven't really thought about THIS before,

maybe once or twice but not this OFTEN.

i guess to have all the familiar FACES around me

all the while BACK then didn't really make me

think of this one QUESTION properly or seriously.

i used to think that there's no TURNING back.

i've came this FAR although not like i've been to

the farthest place but i thought i could KEEP

going ahead. come to think of it now, i MIGHT

have been WRONG. only GOD knows.

too many things playing in my HEAD.

i wish i could just TELL both my ma and da,

i would like to SPREAD my wings and

keep FLYING away. i have no intention of

leaving them BEHIND but i would like to

discover my own SELF. i doubt i would be

able to so if i go HOME. i see nothing in

there. i see both their FACES. the two faces

i keep CLOSE right in my heart and

the two faces i think about 24/7.