bleh

didn't feel good today.

like whatever I did there was either resistance or just I'm obligated to do it.

not that I wanted to do it own my own accord.

I'm so tired because if climbing but I need to study for tomorrows test.

sigh.

climb wasn't as fun as I hoped it was.

maybe it's because I haven't been there for so long, all the built up expectations just failed me.

expected to complete my project and stuff. but I'm still stuck at the same last tile.

and thought I could at least do some inter women.

but in the end I can barely manage movie women.

and the slackline wasn't put up.

amy gave me a route before I had to go for tuition.

hang low from sloper sideways and go.

I just because super scared and shit I didn't know why.

maybe its because I keep reflecting and I realised my limits.

but, my body always surprises me with what it can do after I commit to the route.

sometimes I think maybe reflecting in my actions doesn't help.

maybe life is really just all about go! go! go!

but I rather read books somewhere nice and quite and reflect on myself while I'm taking a break.

oh well it's going to be a long time before I can even break out of this colourless cycle.