I'm so tired of being not tired but not accomplishing anything.
I slog for hours on end but produce nothing.
later, I must hit revision with all I've got.
I can't waste anymore time.
I need that feeling back if I want to score and go to that course.
to any course, for that matter.
I don't want to be stuck doing something I have no interest in.
just like any random adult you pick out of the crowd.
"Life brought me here."
but life don't make the decisions does it?
life aint the one tellin you what to eat for breakfast, not the one telling you who to snog, not the one making you read books or bake cookies.
it's all you.
whatever you end up doing, or not doing, it's all your fault.
take the blame.
man up.
try harder.
there's always another way.
no matter how difficult, or how time consuming.
as long as if you seem it's worth the effort, do it.
with 100% conviction and passion.
I'll be here.
this past me immortalised in the blog post.
judging you. and the efforts you've put in.
I slog for hours on end but produce nothing.
later, I must hit revision with all I've got.
I can't waste anymore time.
I need that feeling back if I want to score and go to that course.
to any course, for that matter.
I don't want to be stuck doing something I have no interest in.
just like any random adult you pick out of the crowd.
"Life brought me here."
but life don't make the decisions does it?
life aint the one tellin you what to eat for breakfast, not the one telling you who to snog, not the one making you read books or bake cookies.
it's all you.
whatever you end up doing, or not doing, it's all your fault.
take the blame.
man up.
try harder.
there's always another way.
no matter how difficult, or how time consuming.
as long as if you seem it's worth the effort, do it.
with 100% conviction and passion.
I'll be here.
this past me immortalised in the blog post.
judging you. and the efforts you've put in.