had another all nighter and am heading to BUGIS now after dental.

looking at all these queers-ahem I mean respectable doctors to be- getting off outram to go to Duke-NUS makes me jealous.

I want to be part of them too.

as in not the being a queer part, but studying medicine.

I don't mind working super hard for the next couple of years if I get to do medicine I think I'd really love doing it.

I weigh these words very carefully, ever since fags in JC told me it is "hard" to study here and I mindlessly brush off their advice as bullshit.

but the sad thing is I don't see myself fitting into the group of medicine undergraduates.

I mean, if you put me in a lab coat and stick me into a group of doctors walking to lunch at the hospital I think I'd stand out more than the mushroom cloud the A bomb created.