I've been spending everyday the way I want to. so far, since the start I have never wasted a single day.
I'm glad I went out with you last night. I did something I couldn't do 4 years ago. I took care of you. though it may be crazy to think ill always be there whenever you go clubbing but at least I know you're steady on your own judging from last night.
The littlest things stay with me for the longest time. things that I know I could've change, small decisions that I screwed up. those things stay with me for a really long time. I've confronted those things, mulled over them, but I guess the only true way I could find peace is to put myself back in the same situation, and pick the correct choice. there weren't any feeling exchanged last night, but I slept better than I had in a long time.
but I always second guess. I never believe what I see with my own eyes. just like how I didn't take that cigarette in front of you, I'll always be afraid of the fact that if I werent around you'd not push that guy away like last night the next time.
but I cant keep tabs on everything, or. even control anything. so I'll just trust, with what little I've left of it, that you're still the same person I've left 2 years ago. and I'll feel much more comfortable leaving my thoughts at that.
I'm glad I went out with you last night. I did something I couldn't do 4 years ago. I took care of you. though it may be crazy to think ill always be there whenever you go clubbing but at least I know you're steady on your own judging from last night.
The littlest things stay with me for the longest time. things that I know I could've change, small decisions that I screwed up. those things stay with me for a really long time. I've confronted those things, mulled over them, but I guess the only true way I could find peace is to put myself back in the same situation, and pick the correct choice. there weren't any feeling exchanged last night, but I slept better than I had in a long time.
but I always second guess. I never believe what I see with my own eyes. just like how I didn't take that cigarette in front of you, I'll always be afraid of the fact that if I werent around you'd not push that guy away like last night the next time.
but I cant keep tabs on everything, or. even control anything. so I'll just trust, with what little I've left of it, that you're still the same person I've left 2 years ago. and I'll feel much more comfortable leaving my thoughts at that.