This week I became sluggish.
This week I felt sluggish.
I left office before 7 o'clock pm.
Usually, I go back home and study something.
But this week,I couldn't.
Once I come back home, there are many things
which distract my mind from studies.
This indicate that my motivation to live is decreaseing.
Lask sadurday, I went to Goukon,private matchmaking
party. I held this party. Menbers consisted 4 men and
4 women. One pretty woman existed there and I got phone & mail
number,and later I mailed her. But she said in her mail "I have a
boy friend.". I wanted to say "If you have boy friend, you should
not come to such a matching party!". But,I held my temper.
In the party,I drunk too much , so I became intoxicated.
And later ,to make matters worse, I became mouth ulcer.
I have never experienced such a big oral ulcer.
Even now, I'm suffering from this ulcer. It's too painful.
Now I'm in the death spiral
No girlfriend →I go to matchmaking party →I spend money & time→
I drink → I become ill →It lessons my motivation.