I want to buy cute clothes!!!
I feel happy when I wear cute clothes, and when I'm filming videos, everyone praises me for wearing cute clothes, so I really want to do that.
But I don't have the money.
The cafe was hard on my mental health, but the money was good... At the wing shop, the base salary is low, the tips are small, and the working hours are short.
I wonder if mental health is that important...
And I wonder if I should sacrifice it to become rich...
I really want to buy some new clothes. The uniforms at Wingya are not stylish lol, but I want to be cute when I'm off work. And when I go to work on my free days, I want to hear from my male colleagues, "It's amazing that you're always here with such a cute girl!!"!!! That's
a certain power, isn't it. Cuteness.
I'm not a woman, but I'm perceived as a woman.
(Not that... to put it simply...
you know Ankh from OOO? He
's perceived as a man, right? And he's in a man's body.
But Ankh is an 800-year-old bird monster.
If you think about it, he's a bird monster, so he doesn't have the concept of human gender, right?
But he's perceived as a man.
If you talk to Ankh properly... well, he'll probably throw a bucket of water on your head lol,
but that seems to be the case for me. I
'm in a woman's body. It's real. And I don't mind being perceived as a woman.
But really...
the concept of human gender is really stupid, so I don't care. And Ankh, Novelcore, and Revise's Kagerou are my biggest gender envies!!!)
There are some things I don't like, but there are also advantages.
I don't have to lift heavy things at all, and if it's just "that time of the month," people don't want to talk about it, and it's kind of cute. I'm thin, so if I say
,
"
I
can't lift a tub of heavy chicken, help me," they'll be like, "Oh, it seems so."
If I get any bigger, that advantage will disappear...
Ah, actually! I never thought about
"wanting to be thin"
or "having to be thin." I've always been thin, so... But recently I saw two photos of me wearing the same camisole, two years apart. "Oh, I was... a bit..." I'm not obese! And I was before! That American stereotype doesn't apply to me! Right now I'm 170cm. And ~56kg? That's it. I have a normal BMI. Normal, really... but when I meet my friends after a long time, they say, "You've lost weight!"... and I'm a little happy.
Even in my own eyes, this body shape looks good on a slim person.
And because I'm slim, my chest and waist are small, and I'm glad I'm not a woman. And if I'm seen as a bad guy, I'm sure I'll pass. And!!! If you buy a rider belt, you don't need an extender.
I bought a CSM Sengoku Driver. A year or two... I can't remember exactly.
CSM is for adult collectors, right?
And Gaim is the show that started my rider journey.
So the Sengoku Driver has always been like a holy grail to me. I finally got it. I was happy.
But
that belt is too big!!! It
falls off my waist.
So I have no choice but to wear the Zi-O Driver strap...
I have a Revise Driver, but the strap is light blue, so it doesn't suit the Sengoku Driver.
(Other than that, we also have the Desired Driver (although Geez is my least favorite Kamen Rider lol) and the Genesis Driver. The one I want most right now is the OOO Driver. And I want the Gamer Driver, but I don't want to buy it before my dear friend graduates from medical school. I didn't want Kiva, but I want a driver... and Gab's...
but we have a rule.
"Don't buy anything before the show ends!!"
I bought a lot during the Geez era, but Geez was such a shocking disappointment that all those purchases just stay in my room...
I had a chance to buy a Bun-Bun Controller at PMC, but I didn't.
And I'm sure I would regret it if I did... my Sento...)
But that standard is just for us. I don't
care if everyone else is thin or fat.
And I definitely don't fat shame! Only bad people do that! If you do that, you're also bad.
A body is a body. And life is hard! It's really hard! If you eat too much to get through it, isn't that a way of life? If you live, and you're not hurting anyone, you can do whatever you want. I think so.
But about us...
I wrote a lot about it today.
I went to COSTCO with my dad recently. Do they
have COSTCO in Japan?
It's a store where you buy food in bulk.
I bought a lot. Looks like I won't have to go grocery shopping until June -
here I am today!
Good morning and good night!