things which can never be changed

I'm in Shizuoka now staying a hotel.
i took a kind of bushiness training at one of our companies factory.

what I learned here is how far people working in a production line from our side, marketing division tokyo.

cristmas is over.

its been a while since i posted the last entry.

but still nothing changed....

super busy and stressful days.

but you know, 2009 almost comes to an end.
so im going back my hometown and spending new year's day with my family.

i can see my dad and brother, and some of my friends.
already so excited about it!

cant wait to go back!!
ive never been more prepared to leave hereeeeeeee!!!!!

change

these days im crazy busy...
theres so much stuff to do everyday.
and some of them make me feel down and dipressed.

think i need some change in my life.
to begin with, i changed the design for my blog.
and i kinda liked it!

also put some widgets in here.
hope you like them as well:)

xoxo rio

ugly truth

i cant say "help me" even though i got hurt so badly.


just wishing somebody could pick me up from this dark and closed world.
wishing i could cry following my heart.


theres no place where i can confess my horrible feeling except here.

i know im seriously bad and selfish.

but let me tell the truth.


i hate my mother.

theres so many reasons wich make me hate her.

however the biggest one is that im still immature and cant accept as she is.

i wish i could say what i think about her.
but i cant.

i wish i could be nice to her even when she is really behaving stupid.
but i cant.

i wish i could cry.
but i cant.

i wish i could disappear and never be back.
but i cant.

i wish i could escape from everything...

time to get started

i was too lazy today as usual.

so now its time to get started feeling refleshed.
its quite freezing but i should keep moving on some stuff i gotta do.

hmmm wanna eat ice cream!!
(dont know why, though...lol)