痛い。

I was so sure about it. About things that happen in my life, I screwed up sometimes and let the people I love, got hurt for what I've done. I should tell you. How sorry I am. To cause you pain and being the way I was.
I was stupid, egoist, and ignorant. I was so young to decide about it.
I never think that I am perfect. Because to tell you the truth, I have many flaws.

For the one I really loved, you should already know who you are. Thanks for sticking up for me after all this years. You knew me an loved me for the way I am.
Yesterday was fun and I cant get it how stupid I am to not spend so much time with you all.
Thanks for everything..

I love how :]
Shuhei hugs me and smile
Haku laugh and singing
Hacchan doing fun things and dance
Stella giggles and thinks
Alex cuddle and messing my hair
Jessica called me "Ringoo-ooooh"
Abigail misses me

"You sure are, a ride to catch.
Everything about all of you is pure love."

They have the important part in my life, part that no one will be able to replace it. I dont like it, if anyone touch them, hurt their feelings.
Seriously, Im going to kill you. Literally.

You mess with them, then I'll cut a bitch. I'll protect them with what I have. Everything I've got.
So... Thanks for sticking up for me. You all have my heart.. Thankyou :)

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I know how much it hurts, to let go someone that you really cared. Someone that you truly loves.
I know how much it hurts, to realize that you can't control your own feeling.
I know how much it hurts, to tell everyone that theres no "us" anymore. Theres only me and you.
I know how much it hurts, to pretend that you're okay when you're not.
I know how much it hurts, to see yourself in the mirror and didnt realize how hurt you are.
I know how much it hurts, to feel the last kiss.
I know how much it hurts, to taste the truth.
I know how much it hurts, to finally say. I still love you, like I did yesterday.

POW POW

I ate sushi again

ok, today was hot and stuff. I went to my ex high school to grab my things ><
then after that, alex called me and said
A : "dude, do you want to grab some sushi?"
R : "we already ate it on sunday.."
A : " yeah so?"
R : "kay, I'll pick you up later"

So after that, I went to his house and pick him up, then we go to sushi store near our house :)
we ate like.... 9 plates... or 10 plates.. IDK xD
after that we went bowling

I cant beat Alex on bowling, but yeah I can beat him on baseball ~ :D muaha
I miss Shuhei though, hes not here (｀(エ)´)ﾉ_彡

crappy-crappy feeling went away when I talk to tsuta-chan :'}
hehe! bom bom bom

I promise to myself to not my heart fall for her again, she didnt even look at me. So why bother to love her and stuff. I've got an amazing friends and I love them all :] more than anything
I love fuu, yes she is my sister. and Sydney (｡・ε・｡) too ~
they knew me from a loooooong time ago, so yeah :] they deserve MY HEART