霜越雪, 生日快樂.

今天是你的23歲生日了.
我們認識時妳還不到14歲吧? 時間過得真快.

身體這樣弱質的妳, 卻總在為我擔心.
9年過去了,
答應過妳的事盡量的去實踐,
可惜也沒法全都做到,
不知道天上的妳會不會感到失望...

9年前的今天,
我傻傻的在教堂跟妳求婚.
妳紅著眼睛, 微笑的嘴角有點抖震,
問我
"你肯定嗎? 你知道我無法跟你一起到老..."

我沒妳爭氣, 眼淚流了出來, 點點頭的, 跟妳說我十分肯定.
妳認真的想了一會, 終於答應了,
我們決定在妳18歲生日那天註冊.
始終再短暫的快樂, 也還是快樂.

第二天, 整天都很靜的妳忽然跟我說,
就算沒有正式註冊, 我們的感情也一樣的吧

當時我不知道妳那天晚上已經開始惡化,
還以為你想悔婚,
急急誇大註冊的意義,
妳連忙澄清妳只是想說現在感覺也像新婚,
可是我當然不會放過妳,
打蛇隨棍上的說不如在妳16歲那年就註冊吧

只是我不知道, 我們根本連妳16歲的生日也永遠等不到...

If you are still here...

If you were still here, today will be your 23rd birthday.
According to our plan, this will also be our 5th anniversary as well..

If things have go out like how we planned,
we should be living in Toronto right now,
I would be working 9-6, 5 days a week.
Taking a walk in a park after dinner.
We would go to the strawberry farm to get some strawberry pie as snack
You probably will bargain for a blueberry pie,
as you love to hold an opposite decision to drive me nuts.

Then we will go to hospital for your periodic physical check up,
you always tell me to wait outside, tho I can tell you are very nervous...

You would probably make me watch some Japanese show with you which I could never had understand,
make some jokes on me before bed and LOL all the way to sleep...


The truth is...this is the 9th year you have left me..
and i still couldn't let go of it..

如果...

如果你還在, 今天就是你的23歲生日了.
按照原本的約定, 我們應該已經結婚5週年了吧?

如果一切都跟著我們的意願進展,
這時我們應該留在多倫多,
悠閒地朝九晚六的上五天班,
週末去公園小坐一會, 到農場買個草莓批回家吃.
你一定會說你要多買一個藍莓批吧?
你總要唱唱反調來逗我.

然後定期跟你到醫院覆診,可是卻不讓我進去陪你,
明明就不安得很...

回家繼續迫我看著我看不明白的日本節目,
在睡前還不忘整我, 然後笑哈哈的去睡...


可惜一切都只是如果...
事實是, 你已經離開我九年了...
但我依然無法習慣這個事實...