It's Rei again, hello
I'll be writing my thoughts about Shuka's 1st album "Patchwork" here instead of spamming on twitter XD
When I first heard the "One piece", I got a bit emotional because we are able to see the other side of our Shuka Saito. By hearing it, I got to tell myself that I also have to do my best as well! It may be difficult to do it but I am doing my best to do so.
When her birthday came and was able to greet her with my drawing, I am hoping that she can at least see it and know that there is one supporter of her that creates drawings to reach her.
I can't help but feel frustrated that I have no chance to see her sing on stage. I am fully aware that there is no such thing as someone like me, a no one but a broke oversea fan, can attend her live, knowing that there is also this virus lurking everywhere no matter where we go. I can't help but tear up a bit.
Wednesday came, the release of her 1st album Patchwork
Knowing my limited knowledge in Japanese, I have to repeat the songs to understand it clearly. When I did, I got emotional at how I can relate to most of her songs.
Natalie published an interview of Shuka about the release of "Patchwork" and read it. I didn't regret spending time reading it because I was able to know more about Shuka and how her songs, the whole album, makes sense. I was able to understand and relate to it deeply.
The song that has huge impact to me is the "Ameame Furarura". I am the type of person that always overwork and tires myself because I have a huge dream to achieve and when I tried to take a break, I always feel guilty and so The time that I should be spending to rest myself, I wasted time thinking that I can finish more works if I just spend the day working which is kind of unhealthy. When I listened to this songs, I realized that it's ok to leave things ( It's ok not to do your best, it can't be help if you have no urge to do things. After all you are battling with yourself and taking a rest is the best option to choose. You 're gonna leave things to tommorow, it's ok to take things at your own pace. Life is not a race after all. This isn'everyone is watering their own plant so you have to take care of yours too, because if you don't then who will?
Then there's this "Koi no roulette"
There's this someone who caught my interest and I thank to this song because it literally speaks to what I felt about this guy. I am confused of my feelings towards him. Am I feeling love or just a friendship? (No more further story because it's talking about this kind of topic isn't familiar for me and it makes me embarrass lol)
And lastly, "Koe wo Kikasete"
Even though I haven't met Shuka in personal or I may not able to support her like how most of her fans did. I may not able to buy her CDs, attend her lives, join her fanclub, and things that how Shukanchuu's do, but I this song gave me the drive to support her more. This song is Shuka's message to her fans and I am thankful that it is also her message to me.
For now, I am doing my best in my pace, trying to hold to the very small hope that I have, that someday, the time will come where I will be able to cheer her in the audience. Holding this very small hope that someday , the day will come that I will become a successfull artist, that my works will be delivered to her, that I will achieve my dreams.
Thank you for reading this up until here, tho I don't know if there will be someone who'll read this in the first place lol
May the maths and toasters be with you always!
--Rei