2025: The Year of Loss
My year was busy full of sadness and also experiencing pure evil - death, illnesses, a tragic fire, total loss of all my material objects, near death (threats), break and enter, seperation, confusion on basic living
New Years: The day I took a first step forward and made a move that was totally selfish for once - it changed everything
2026: Will officially mark the beginning of what I am calling my "2026 Dream Era"
I will make all efforts to get established onto the path I have laid out for myself [(1) renting a monthly hotelroom to stay in, (2) getting back to work, and then (3) enrolling in the (most amazing 🤩) art school (University) that I have chosen and have already been in talks with in establishing a seat for me once I am secured in my home life
DATING♥️ I am super excited for this one. About 3 or 4 years ago I was diagnosed with one of the majorental ilesses, they had diagnosed it as not drug related but trama enduced. This mental illness has a very low chance of those diagnosed ever making a recovery and even more so actually end up condemned because of it. I am very lucky at even the time of diagnosis a full recovery was suspected to happen with the aid of medications and proper regular treatment which included doctor visits, home care, temporary assistance in daily living and rehabilitation. At the time 8 was lucky enough to have been in a long-term relationship with a man and even though we are no longer together I will always have such respect and admiration for the help he had given me a chance at life really one that I had never had a chance in having since it was taken away from me infanthood at the start of a series of trumad but ut he was there beside me covering every other area of my life for me that the doctors help wasn't like entertainments, helping me and giving me since if importantness in finding an developing hobbies, building relationships with family and friends, bringing back my old girly girl aesthetic and overall vibe he was there for the 3 straight lotus before the diagnosis where I lay motionless in bed unable to move or talk watching TV with me and making sure only my favorite shows were on YES what you did made a difference I couldn't move or hold a thought but I was still fully processing information I was lucky to have fallen into this position with at least my eyes glued to the television otherwise it would have been just me starting blankly at the wall for 3 months unable to even move my eyeballs when recovery happened and it would overwhelm me learning to do everything again fot the first time he wax there both supporting me and pressing my buttons too aswell like "what do tou mean 9ver-stimulated? Here then deal with me poking at you" 8 do t fi d it mean now looking back at it he just obviously wanted me to work maybe a bit on my temper and returning to normal he put up with my frustration which happened more often then not the yelling, the anger, the crying because it would always end up becoming to much (everything) and we both became exhausted he even took care of ME for the first time asking me to go off work to help myself he's SUPERMAN there will never be another him
Right now everything is new to me honestly it's amazing I imagine I am a little bit behind developmental wise I am now feeling things and can finally have a deep understanding of things (everything) around me.
I am now 34 and everything is just now happening to me for the first time (I didn't know this is wh% happiness actually felt like I see why everyone was enjoying it now but it's crazy because I actually did not know and it took a long time before anyone had even realized the slightest thing wrong with me but from the slightest effect to the biggest life changing experience I am newly seperated fromy long-term spouse of 20 years and I loved him very much but it's crazy because now it's like the whole definition and understanding of what live is and even feels like is completely elevated and different u am so excited to get out there and meet people and build relationships for the first time this is the one thing that I have been laying in bed with counting down to recovery for and it's finally here yay
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF!!
Me
