Intrusive thoughts
What is that?
Put simply,
they are unwanted thoughts
They are really disturbing
I've read books about it
And trying to recover
yes
I feel better now
I had extreme intrusive thoughts
some months ago
They are really disturbing
I couldn't study at all at that time
It is like
I don't like my thoughts
Because they are disturbing
Like
Thought about putting my eyes out
Thought about stabbing myself/someone with knife
It indeed looks really impossible
But at that time I was stupid
I took all of my thoughts seriously
Like they will be a reality if I don't get rid of them
But paradoxically
They come back
and disturb me more
I was almost crazy at that time
Now
It is more lighter
I can tolerate them
and not taking them seriously
Thanks to God and the book I've read
Still there are some anxieties
caused by my intrusive thoughts
Like the one in my right hand right now
I feel like, my index finger's nail
gonna break
and blood gonna come out of it
Everytime I write something and study
I always have this thought
somehow I haven't tolerated this thought..
and in my right leg's knee
It feels like it gonna punch into my right eye
I'm trying to handle this