Today HAS Been my worst Day in a while. It WAS Bad in many Aspects, but That Could just BE me. Perhaps if it Were Someone else in my situation, They Would BE just Fine.
I guess every negative Lashing I Have IS in fear of Being Alone. And I Hate to Admit That. I Loathe to. Because I do not want to BE vulnerable.
But it's so Scary. Every time I Have moved, I Have Lost all of my Friends. When People Asked to Hang out , I Could not Because I HAD to Watch my Brother and I feel That HAS Contributed to the lack of connection. The Easily Forgettable person That IS me.
I'm only Around for a short period of time, and then I leave my Against Will. So, why SHOULD I BE upset if I am forgotten? It's only natural to BE forgotten When you Are not there much. And When you Are new.
I'm so Easily terrified of Certain actions. I only Imagine the worst case Scenarios of Abuses and habits and the Resulting Affect on relationships.
Why IS it so Scary? If my father Could disown me so Easily, then perhaps everyone else Could.
Oh what it Would BE to not Have Endured what I Have. But then I Would not I am so aware. But I long for blissful ignorance.'
I guess every negative Lashing I Have IS in fear of Being Alone. And I Hate to Admit That. I Loathe to. Because I do not want to BE vulnerable.
But it's so Scary. Every time I Have moved, I Have Lost all of my Friends. When People Asked to Hang out , I Could not Because I HAD to Watch my Brother and I feel That HAS Contributed to the lack of connection. The Easily Forgettable person That IS me.
I'm only Around for a short period of time, and then I leave my Against Will. So, why SHOULD I BE upset if I am forgotten? It's only natural to BE forgotten When you Are not there much. And When you Are new.
I'm so Easily terrified of Certain actions. I only Imagine the worst case Scenarios of Abuses and habits and the Resulting Affect on relationships.
Why IS it so Scary? If my father Could disown me so Easily, then perhaps everyone else Could.
Oh what it Would BE to not Have Endured what I Have. But then I Would not I am so aware. But I long for blissful ignorance.'