i my me mine
you your you yours
he his him his
she her her hers
yours
mine
hers
whose......?
whatever.........
ほんまむかつくねん！！！
どんだけ気ぃつかわすねん、あいつは。
かんぺき主義者なアンタはたしかに仕事で結果みせてて
そのやりかたは「正解」かもしれんで。
でも、感覚がちがうあたしだって、まちがってはないし。
細かいねん。細かいことにこだわりすぎ！
細かいところまで気配りすることで顧客増やせるっていう信念を押し付けたいんやったら
クソ具体的に「ここにこういう風に、こうやって」ってクソ細かい指示出せや。
あたしはあたしの感覚で、いいと思ったやりかたでやってしまうだけやし。
そこ妥協でけへんっていうんやったら
自分のコピーキャットさせとけっちゅーねん。中途半端な自由が逆に動きにくいねん！！
じぶんはすべてお見通しっていう顔でえらそうに指示してくんなや、殺したいわ。
どんだけやねん。もういいです。うざいです。
ひとりで徹夜して、みんなのでけへん分はぜんぶ俺がカバーしてあげるしかない。
そうでもして、早くみんなに手柄を立てさせてあげたい？
は！？みんなに？みんなのためならなんだってしますって？
笑わせんなや。そんなん重いだけやし。
結局じぶんのやり方を見せつけたいだけちゃうんかボケ！
そういう風にして企画が成功したとしても
あたしは素直に「自分ががんばったからやな」とは思えんやん。
明らかに「校長のフォローがなかったらどうせ無理でした。助けてくれてありがとう」ってなるだけで
それが原動力になって仕事力がのびるとは思えません。
正義の味方のつもりか？
いや、それより自己犠牲な、悲劇のヒロインやな。
もうええって。ええかげんにしてくれ。
逆にこのタイミングで駄目だししてきて、
あたしらを精神的に窮地に追い込んでるんちゃうの？
まーあたしはどうでもいいって思ってるけどな。
はっきり言って、あんたほど気合入ってる人間おらんから。
そこまで必死になるほどのもんじゃないやん？
特にこのタイミングで。
いきなり前夜に「納得でけへんから。俺がやっとくから」とか。うざいだけやで。
やりたいんやったら、勝手にどうぞ。がんばってーって感じ。
なにしても他人とずれてる天然な子。あほな子。扱いされて、
それを笑われてるみたいに思えるんやって。
たぶん実際にそうやしな。ほんま凹むわ。
悔しいけど、仕事の感覚わかってへんのは事実やからなぁ。。
かわいい♪って連発されることが、
馬鹿にされてるみたいに感じさせるねん、その言いかた。泣きたくなる。
あたしに癒しを求められても、はっきり言って嫌味に聞こえるし。
あたしが足ひっぱってるのんもわかってるし。
逆に息苦しいっていうか、自分のポジションわからんようなるわ。
仕事なんか、恋愛なんか。。。
あたしはなんのために必要とされてんの？
・・・あたし、なにがしたいの？
仕方ない。それでも仕方ない。
キライじゃないのかもしれない。
また愛することができたらいいのに。
ごめんな、大好きっていうてあげることしかでけへん。
考えても、今年はどうにもなれへんね。
よし。もういい。
あの弱いふりした計算男の求めるポジションを演じてみせるわ。
そんなに死にたくなるんやったら、死んだらええやん。
そんなに自分勝手に生きていたいなら、生きて。
それやったら死ぬことなんか考えんなや、殺すぞ！
あーーーーー、気持ち折れてボロボロや。
機嫌よさそうな顔する練習しなあかんわー。笑
My favorite singer
Sheryl Crow is singing like this...
"Everybody's making love cause Love Is Free"
That's the great idea(・∀・)
Don't u think so?
I gotta make myself lovely.
I gotta make myself loved .
Because
I wanna make LOVE 
Making Love means not only having sex
but having a lovely relationship with someone.
Now, I want to know
how to love somebody.
I feel like I can't love anybody.
I can't believe the words he says.
I can't believe the thing he does.
Everything looks cheesy ....
Guys are hard to trust !!!
They change their mind so easily.
I don't know
how to love him...though i want to.
Everything about him is just pain 4 now.
I wanna run away from him.
But
I can't stop thinking about him.
Oh my gosh, I'm so sick... hahaha
The idea I've had since i met him
is
I wanna make love with him
and
I wanna make him happy.
I 'm so stupid thinking that way.
My favorite singer
Sheryl Crow is singing like this...
"If it makes you happy,
It can't be that bad....
If it makes you happy
Why the hell are you so sad ? "
Why the hell am i so sad ?
Wow,,,,i just have 11days in Vancouver!!!
That's so hard to believe and I feel sooooo sad,,,I love my life in Vancouver now
'cause I have some nice friends here... Of cource i miss my friends in Japan but...
anyway I feel like I won't come back here, so that make me feel more..hmmm,,,,.
I can't find the right word 2 express..lol
I had a good time and
especially i really like my working place,A&W hanburger shop
I can't believe that I've been working there for 9 moonths!!! Amazing!!!!
I met a lot of ppl there and they were so friendly nice to me.
I went out 4 dinner with one of my A&W friends last night.
He is very good at maikng friends,and he is fun to talk with
He took me to the good restaurant and we had a great time there
And he told me that he feels like I'm different from other Japanese girls.
It means i am not accommodating because i'm quite opinionated
I was surprised
when he said like that 'cause i didn't think
that i show my charactor @ my job place...
lol
But at the same time,I was happy to hear that because he saw me through( ´艸｀)
I know that I'm not good at getting along with ppl at first.
Unknowingly,I'm trying to keep distance from them
i think i'm shy and its hard 4 me 2 show my stupidities.
Actually, i am so stupid ,But I keep my cool and protect myself.
So, it takes so long to be close with friends.
But once i become to like somebody, I really get into with him/her.
I wanna show everything and
i can be totally relaxed with my close friends
That's why almost all of my friends say like
their first impression of me was totally different from now
AM I DOUBLE
hahaha, no way!!!
I think it's not that bad. Because actually
I don't wanna be nice & get along with everybody.
I just wanna be close with ppl
who understand my personality & like my charactor
....I guess it sounds like I am too selfish,eh?
I am picky about friends. lol
But I also think that i should change my behavior.
I am too severe to talk about the idea.
And I'm likely to stick to my opinion 'cause i believe that I'm right.
This is not good, I should be more flexible.
He really saw the point then....I was impressed.
I think he is much maturer than i expected.
And he told me that he was just like me before but he changed his way.
That's why he understands me. But I'm wondering how he could change...
I'm not sure that I can change my way....it seems so hard actually
But I wanna try to get this communication skill like him.
[I can do it but I don't do it] and
[I can't do it so I don't do it] is totally different 4 me,
So I should try it.
It will absolutely help me to make better relationships with ppl in JAPAN
Anyways, I was lucky to be a good friend with him.
But unfortunately I'm leaving sooooooon
I feel like I should have been friendly with him before
lol
It's the hardest thing 4 me to say good-bye(´･ω･｀) hmmm...
That's so hard to believe and I feel sooooo sad,,,I love my life in Vancouver now
'cause I have some nice friends here... Of cource i miss my friends in Japan but...
anyway I feel like I won't come back here, so that make me feel more..hmmm,,,,.
I can't find the right word 2 express..lol
I had a good time and
especially i really like my working place,A&W hanburger shop
I can't believe that I've been working there for 9 moonths!!! Amazing!!!!
I met a lot of ppl there and they were so friendly nice to me.
I went out 4 dinner with one of my A&W friends last night.
He is very good at maikng friends,and he is fun to talk with
He took me to the good restaurant and we had a great time there
And he told me that he feels like I'm different from other Japanese girls.
It means i am not accommodating because i'm quite opinionated
I was surprised
when he said like that 'cause i didn't think that i show my charactor @ my job place...
lolBut at the same time,I was happy to hear that because he saw me through( ´艸｀)
I know that I'm not good at getting along with ppl at first.
Unknowingly,I'm trying to keep distance from them
i think i'm shy and its hard 4 me 2 show my stupidities.
Actually, i am so stupid ,But I keep my cool and protect myself.
So, it takes so long to be close with friends.
But once i become to like somebody, I really get into with him/her.
I wanna show everything and
i can be totally relaxed with my close friends
That's why almost all of my friends say like
their first impression of me was totally different from now
AM I DOUBLE
hahaha, no way!!!I think it's not that bad. Because actually
I don't wanna be nice & get along with everybody.
I just wanna be close with ppl
who understand my personality & like my charactor
....I guess it sounds like I am too selfish,eh?
I am picky about friends. lol
But I also think that i should change my behavior.
I am too severe to talk about the idea.
And I'm likely to stick to my opinion 'cause i believe that I'm right.
This is not good, I should be more flexible.
He really saw the point then....I was impressed.
I think he is much maturer than i expected.
And he told me that he was just like me before but he changed his way.
That's why he understands me. But I'm wondering how he could change...
I'm not sure that I can change my way....it seems so hard actually
But I wanna try to get this communication skill like him.
[I can do it but I don't do it] and
[I can't do it so I don't do it] is totally different 4 me,
So I should try it.
It will absolutely help me to make better relationships with ppl in JAPAN
Anyways, I was lucky to be a good friend with him.
But unfortunately I'm leaving sooooooon
I feel like I should have been friendly with him before
lolIt's the hardest thing 4 me to say good-bye(´･ω･｀) hmmm...
I've broken up with my new boyfriend,,,,。(´д｀lll)
just after his going back to Japan.That sucksヾ(▼ﾍ▼；)
Boys are hard to trust! I was pissed off
I was sooooo shocked at the moment
(only 2 weeks ago,actually...)
but I am totally ok now!I got over him at all(*^▽^*)
I'm becomming more tough and possitive.
I can stil keep in touch with him as a good friend.
I really enjoyed staying with him for 3 month in Vancouver
and our relationship was so good.
He was not afectionate nor romantic like my ex-boyfriend
but much much more confortable to spend with.
I really like him.
But he likes his ex-girlfriend in Japan.
It's the eternal triangle,eh? hahaha
I don't really care about this heartbreaking,
Because as my friend told me before,
there are so many cute guys in the world!!!!
That's true( ´艸｀)
I've learned a lot about relationshipヾ(＠°▽°＠)ﾉ
Anyways,I just have a month and half in Vancouver.... oh my gosh!!!
How fast time flies!!! But I have no regrets so far(°∀°)b
I really enjoyed staying in Canada
and I met great people including him('-^*)/
I was so lucky to see them here in Canada!!!!
o(〃＾▽＾〃)o I AM VERY HAPPY
I'm fed up with this rainy winter...
It's gonna rain cats and dogs this week....How can I enjoy ?
Anyway, I'm not in the mood to be alone on rainy days...
I felt alone out of the blue on the way home today
And after I came home,I chatted with my boy friend in Japan on the net
He made me so sad and I cried a lot again...It's not happy thing...
I have no confidence to get along with him for now.
Long distance relationship is so complicating and we are not mature at all.
I guess I need to talk with him seriously tomorrow....
I'm probably gonna say good-bye to him... I can't believe that
Because he was almost my everything and
I believed that I'll stay with him to the end...
But love was not that easy
I will love him no more.
I don't wanna live a lie.
I'd rather be honest to a faultDon't u think so??
There are other fish in the sea !? lol
♪My Happy Ending Avril Lavigne
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
Oh such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything,everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be,supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
It's gonna rain cats and dogs this week....How can I enjoy ?
Anyway, I'm not in the mood to be alone on rainy days...
I felt alone out of the blue on the way home today
And after I came home,I chatted with my boy friend in Japan on the net
He made me so sad and I cried a lot again...It's not happy thing...
I have no confidence to get along with him for now.
Long distance relationship is so complicating and we are not mature at all.
I guess I need to talk with him seriously tomorrow....
I'm probably gonna say good-bye to him... I can't believe that
Because he was almost my everything and
I believed that I'll stay with him to the end...
But love was not that easy
I will love him no more.
I don't wanna live a lie.
I'd rather be honest to a fault
Don't u think so??There are other fish in the sea !? lol
♪My Happy Ending Avril Lavigne
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
Oh such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything,everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be,supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending
How was your Thanks Giving day??
I made pumpkin soup for the first time of my life
And it was so easy and good tasteヾ(o･∀･o)ﾉ”
It's Tuesday morning...I've gotta work from now
I just came home and remember this romantic song
"Tuesday Morning" Michelle Branch
I remember stormy weather
The way the sky looks when it's cold
And you were with me
Content with walking
So unaware of the world
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who you are
I took your picture
While you were sleeping
And then I paced around the room
If I had known then
That these things happen
Would they have happened with you?
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who I was
And if you turned around to see me and I was gone
You should have looked outside your window
'Cause the sun was coming up
The sun was coming up
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Tuesday morning
In the dark
We were finding out
Who we are
Tuesday morning
In the dark
We were finding out
Who we are
Who we are
Who we are
Who we are
I made pumpkin soup for the first time of my life
And it was so easy and good tasteヾ(o･∀･o)ﾉ”
It's Tuesday morning...I've gotta work from now
I just came home and remember this romantic song
"Tuesday Morning" Michelle Branch
I remember stormy weather
The way the sky looks when it's cold
And you were with me
Content with walking
So unaware of the world
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who you are
I took your picture
While you were sleeping
And then I paced around the room
If I had known then
That these things happen
Would they have happened with you?
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who I was
And if you turned around to see me and I was gone
You should have looked outside your window
'Cause the sun was coming up
The sun was coming up
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Tuesday morning
In the dark
We were finding out
Who we are
Tuesday morning
In the dark
We were finding out
Who we are
Who we are
Who we are
Who we are
I went to the movie last night.
The title was 'Across the Universe'
It was really my tasteヽ(*´∀`)ノ
That musical story was based on The Beatlessongs
and set in a 1960's England and America
The 60's anti-war movement
and pure love story were phychedelically
described and that reminds me of my favorite artist , Salvador Dali
And the Beatles songs are so fantastic
They really rock
The title was 'Across the Universe'
It was really my tasteヽ(*´∀`)ノ
That musical story was based on The Beatles
songs and set in a 1960's England and America
The 60's anti-war movement
and pure love story were phychedelicallydescribed and that reminds me of my favorite artist , Salvador Dali
And the Beatles songs are so fantastic
They really rock