it's raining..

got a new cellphone today after about a month living without it (´＿｀｡)
but i dont really like it..
maybe next month i will trade-in the cellphone for another cell phone.

aah too lazy to finish the web designs.
there are 2 designs to be finished today and i only have done 1 (and it's not completely done =.=;)
ahh whatever. thats the only way i could get moree money ( ￣っ￣)

anywayy im taking the art course!
cant wait to start the class. haha i love art so much (°∀°)b

haha lets make ourself busy and forget about those unhappy feelings! *laughs*
but still,i need a friend so bad! ;___;

i need this..

yeah i really need a blog now,since i have nobody for me to share my problem with xD

there are some people i used to talk to when i have problem,
but it was before. now i've lost them.
here's the thing.
at first they were dating each other and i was the one who help this guy to confess to the girl.
then after dating for months,they broke up. and he put the blame on me. he said i was being too close with his gf and i was trying to take her from him and she actually liked me not him and seemed like she was more comfortable with me than with him and it was wrong for me to hang out with her and we were in love and we cheated on him and this and that and %#@#*&#%)@#*&)
i was the one who help you to date her and why the hell do i want to ruin your relationship?
if i liked her i wont help you in the first place..

at school you were chatting and laughing with the other girl while she just sat quietly looking at you.
she was jealous but she never told you that,right?
i just cant stand seeing my bestfriend being sad like that so i tried to cheer her up.
and she always asked the guy to hang out together at the basketball court but he said if this another girl(which was his new best friend) wasnt there,he wont come. it was boring without her.
see that? he was being stupid for saying something like that to his own gf.
then she asked me if she can go with me because almost everyday i go to the court to practice and i said sure.
after blablablaablaa they got into fight and he blamed me for what happened. he said im a fukin backstabber. what the fuck?!
after what i've done for you this is what i deserve to get?
before that you keep saying that we (himself,the girl and i) will always be together as besfriends but just see what the hell happened now?
you're the one who ruined our friendship.
then i tried to clear everything so i decided that i should stop talking to his gf,my best friend.
i did that for him. and i thought after that everything will be back to normal but i was totally wrong.
he was being bitchy towards me and he told everyone about how i've backstabbed him which i didnt. everyone is avoiding me now.
whyyyy? i never had a best friend that last long..am i not good enough to get one?
am i a bad person?? why???
maybe its my fate to be all alone xD
huuhhh..


urghh its hurt so bad its hurttttladhasjdaldasdkalowiejdn!!
God,cant life be any easier?
if only i still have my little sister with me im sure i'll feel better after talking to her .__.
but i dont think its a good idea. i dont wanna bug her with my 'little problem' xD
and we're not as close as before :/
i missmissmiss her so damn muchhh.
my fault because nowadays i rarely get online and i spend most of my free time thinking about my problemmms.
haha. 

feeling better :D
lol.