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If I vent my rage, anxiety, and depressed feelings, nobody will never do anything for me.
Nobody will never say something that comforts me.
That's the truth I've never wanted to admit.
But it's a fact.

There is no one who really understands my inner emotion.
There is even no one who will try to understand it.
Whatever.

I wish I could live a life that has no relationship with other people.

ahhh

what am I saying.

This is just gibberish


I wish I could fly away to other country like America or Australia or New Zealand

Sick of this country

people in this country

so sick of them

putting on kindness just on the surface and so ugly in essence.

あ

Telephone rings and I grab the gun
Forever has come to its end
And you will never recognize us in this blood red uniform
What do I wanna do with all this turmoil over
Probably cry in your warm toxic embrace
Captain says we'll conquer them by day three morning

あ

誰かが近寄ってこないわけじゃない

好意を寄せてくれる人もいないわけじゃない

自分も好意がないわけじゃない

でも直前になると線を引いてしまう

なんでだろう

自分から一線を引いて逃げてるくせに

孤独だとか嘆いてる

ほんとどうしようもないね

小さい頃からこんなに人苦手だったっけ

人といると落ち着かない

誰といても早く一人になりたいって思ってしまう

一人になると孤独だとか言って不満を垂らしてる

どっちみち苦しめってことかね

この気持ち理解してくれる人いるかな

一生人と分かり合えることはないと思う

はぁ