It's 2020 and i'm old, yeay~

As we grow old, people who we consider friends tend to get smaller in number. We selected fews who we think we can trust, and maybe fews who we kept because we think they dont have problems with us.

I really dont mind, since trying to get along with people who irritate me so much is tiring. And im not that nice.

I really appreciate friends who made good impact in my life, even though they just give me some light advice in my hard time and suddenly its so hard to reach them again since they have their own life.

Sometimes i cry just because i remember how deep their words means to me when i need it so much.

I really have a fews good friends i found here in pigg. How i miss them so much. How i wish i can chat about anything just like when im in my twenties lol.

I realize now in my old age, its not how long you know them. But how do you try to understand them and appreciate them well.

I try to remember someone kindness so their bad sides didnt blinded my judgement of them.
Even though they hurted me, and didnt realize...
Because maybe i've hurted them too, somehow. I really think its okay to cut some ties and forget, rather than

pretending everything is okay and continue to lie...


And i really really just realize, my English grammar is really suck ass...

whatever...

everytime i've turned the TV on,there is always bad news. what you've watched on TV are 70% propaganda, 10% disaster, 10% criminal, 9% trash, and 1% drama. people do not choose what they want to watch, the media choose it for them. they want to make you believe the "truth" they're creating. they made people choose side for which is right and which is wrong.

humans are afraid of things they don't know, so, many of them research in the easiest way, by TV. and by the grace of Lord, seeing lot's of them getting fooled by those unbelievable crap is just overwhelmed me.

like it or not, human is the most tricky, dirty, egoist, greedy and opportunistic creature. there're lots more to be honest, but it'll make a new post just to write what sins humans are made of. point is, we only take side to things that benefit us.


if you think war or other shits happen because of religion, race, politics, or just as simple as pride? then you are dead wrong, we made mess just because we can. just because we want to. we can create the "reason" after, we always do.

next time you want to know something,try to research from a reliable source. don't keep a habit of judging people without knowledge. please don't act like you're the expert just because you watched it before on the screen.

what am i rambling about at this hours..., it's not that i've lost faith in humanity, but it broke my rotten heart to see how people can be so ignorant just by seeing something unclear on TV...

okay, gotta sleep...

but please, don't judge me just because my grammar sucks...loll..
 

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