*** [#60]

It's 4.12. evening in Finland
and my b-day is tomorrow

I already got roses


lol Skyrim map


and I got my present(s) from Påke and Esa yesterday;
next years calendar and sweet lamp thingy *--*


it's pretty
I love it


I'm not sure if I have anything else to say at the moment~


Jimi has loved his advent calendar
fdhuikjhszjkd


byeh
lol

~~ [#59]

It's so cold!!
I'm freezing 24/7
this is probably the only reason I hate winter... with snow and ice
so there's 3 reasons
whatever

Tomorrow is the first day of december?
yes
fuuub
I have nothing done for anything....

no presents or maybe one,
I need to bleach my hair
I need to look for that fucking working place (I have about month left and I have no fucking idea what to do)
shopping
shopping
shopping
b-day in few days
EAT YOU ALIVE gig
christmas
etc. etc.

so I'm mostly fucking fucked in my head


And it's so cold too
and I'm tired
feel sick 24/7

everything sucks again
but I'm good at hiding it, it seems

Yo~ [#58]

Plaaaaaahhhh
I hate waiting nowadays
I used to be more patient but right now I just want my shit already
somehow I feel like I fucked up everything and I'm scared I'll never get them
x_x
paranoid

so new to me



NOT





+ I'm getting more and more anxious and stressed again
even the smallest things make me want to cry and hide from the world

maybe I should start taking my pills

again

I should have been taking them all this time, but they make me feel sick

price to pay?
I guess