Cryptum

Cryptum

You are what you dare.

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I never thought I could Love you this much.
I'm not sure whether its good or bad.
Keep going, okay?
I choked back tears today
'Cause I can't begin to say
How much you've shaped this boy
These last ten years or more

My friends, we've seen it all
Triumphs to drunken falls
And our bones are broken still
But our hearts are joined until

Time slips its tired hand
Into our tired hands
We've years 'til that day
And so much more to say

You give the strength to me
A strength I never had
I was a mess, you see
I'd lost the plot so bad

You dragged me up and out
Out of the darkest place
There's not a single doubt
When I can see your faces

My friends, we've seen it all
When it made no sense at all
You dare to light my path
And found the beauty in the aftermath

Let me hold you up
Like you held me up
It's too long to never say this
You must know I've always thought

You give the strength to me
A strength I never had
I was a mess, you see
I'd lost the plot so bad

You dragged me up and out
Out of the darkest place
There's not a single doubt
When I can see your faces

You give the strength to me
A strength I never had
I was a mess, you see
I'd lost the plot so bad

You dragged me up and out
Out of the darkest place
There's not a single doubt
When I can see your faces
I have a black dog in my life.
It hunts.
Is that me... or everyone around me?
I have no feeling, have no heart, have no love.
Can't find joy, can't feel happy, can't fell sleep...

Is that I don't trust you or...
nope, never mind.

I always talk about leave here, but, till now, nothing has accomplished.
I'm sick, prisoned, mislead ...
by all these sweet lies.
I want to be myself.
I want to achieve the dream I once had.

What should I do?
I don't care what you're hiding...I just care about you.
Maybe you are not aware of it...
I'd say nothing.
Nothing,
Till the day you understand.
Sometime...
I just felt like that man.
Selfish?
or Childish.

I don't want to be him.
and I don't to be neither of them.

Work hard.
Work harder.

I must prove myself as me.
...neither of them.

I'm better.
When you ask me that, what I think love is?
You really make me laugh.

I can't say that.. 'I know love much more than you.'
But can you?
Do you really understand?
Yes, I mean this, 'Love'.

I don't want to disappoint you, so that is the reason I lead myself into this trap.
If you love me, you should know.
I'm tolerated.

I spook lots of thoughts.
I mean no harm.
But you've never listend.

Not even a word.

Remember when I talked what happened between him and me.
You laugh.
You never know... what is this mean to me.

I love lot of things.
but not you.
I don't even like you.

You always ask too much, but gave too little.
You think yourself as a man, but you are child.
A very little pity child.

I don't own you anything.
Because you never know 'what Love is?'.

Is that just chemical reaction?
or is a emotion ask no repay.

You'd never know.
You want to be a hero whom to save the loved one.
But you can't even save yourself.
You like to be a Saviour,
But, look back what you've done.

So.
never.
You'd never know what's in my mind.
Because you never care what I'm thinking of.

All you care is yourself.

I don't like you.
not a bit.

you make me feel sick.

you selfish, pity little man.

now I'm done with you.

I will never ever tolerate your foolish.

I shall never feel guilty.
I hate you.

I hate you.

Why people 'Must' get married?

I'm done.
I felt sad when I looked into your eyes.
Cannot understand why you such an optimist.

I'd never lie to you,
But you'd never understand me.

Please, just...
Let me go.