maybe I would soon change my blog at somewhere else.
this is because these days I thought I never wanna be spoiled this situation from my circle of a family.
particulary, everyday everyday my life style is that shit!! shit!! shit!! fucking shit situation!! I have thought so.
similary, ya true.....if I were doing my best the English, ya surely I could be passed an higher level exam of an eiken or TOEIC or etc.........
just........what I'm spoiled here is that I can't forgive myself. basically, my old is increasingly being 30 or.......more than that........someday my old will absolutely be older person..........because of this, I cannot resist being things like this. so that's why I just really really wanna go out of here on desperation everyday.........you know??
anyway anyway anyway I wanna leave my home......so soon after, maybe I would be out of my home.
if I summarized myself, in the long run, feel like this. in case I am......so far.
after all, I mustn't hope an insurance.......if I though like that, more and more my situation could be fall down than now. therefore, I will soon go out of my home........ahh!!!!!! I wana move on other places........I wanna put myself for the places where I have no friends or have no my aquaintance by all means.......just so irritating toward myself though, only I'll continue the efforts. once I do it, I believe that I would be opening the window for the future. and not to be mocked to others in English. that's life about my lifetime. today, I was so excited but........this is my real answer and my real heart. I don't know precisely who will read this blog, but for reading earnestly, I'd like you guys to look and protect me. though this is maybe a certain crazy talk. maybe just floundering about myself............
sorry for the sudden you guys. just now, I wanted to get rid of this fucking shit heart irritating to myself. for the reason, it is as I consider above things.
even so, the atmosphere of tonight is still hot haha www thus, do I just turn a/c on.......ahh sleepy.....after woke up at 4, since I've been studying English till now. I have to go to bed..........I would fall down www.
to my relief, I could only write it down that amount of these fonts were enjoyable.............
all my lifetime really will drawn it out..........uhh sleepy....... well then, I go to sleep, though I'd like to write my real heart. finally, so that I will not absolutely end up to be just the hobby......this is what you know?? needless to say I think so. I do significance things for my future.
then, I will.
farewell for the time being till we meet again in this blog. bye everybody.