I don't like myself trying to cover up my colour not to let people see them. I wanna be proud of myself, my appearance, but I can't. I've been living this 6 years hating myself, especially my appearance. I don't know how I can fix it. How can I? If I were pretty, my life would be much much much brighter. Every time I see pretty girls, I terribly envy them. Though i wanna dress up and make up like other girls do, those make me look worse. Am I feeling really comfortable in my own skin someday??? And will see this thinking how stupid I was and how wasted the time I had spent hating my appearance was??? I hope I will. As i get old, do all of these negative feelings turn into a good memory when I look back??? I hope It will.