Before I write anything, I'll take this space for my friend to say that Jason Is Awesome. K. -----
I had things to talk about today, But I forgot what I was going to say exactly. I'll probably be rambling today, once again~! :P
I saw "The woman in black" Today--It was good, but disappointing at the same time. I would recommend it I won't ruin it for you that haven't seen it
Today was a slow slow slowwww day and uneventful as well except for the movie.
I was a little disheartened during the day for some short time around lunch timebut it was only a few seconds before I let the thought slip from my mind and I changed my thought process. It was funny. I saw Itoko today and she was like "Hey nani!" but...but...she had on the kevin Jacket thats the first thing i saw/said, "Kevin jacket!" *grabs* LOL Later on, I kept joking around saying, "KEVINNN~" *Hugs francis* TT LOL "I'm not kevin" haha~We are kidding around alwayss! Hehe Francis is always super cool and funny :3 We've been friends since 8th grade! Thats a long time now that I think about it
Truthfully I feel kind of sad that all my friends have boyfriends, Not because I dont have one--but because it seems like I talk to them less and less when they have a boyfriend Like my best friend is connected at the hip with her boyfriend and Even though I'm happy with the fact that shes happy--I also miss my best friend, We almost never talk anymore I'll Be gone soon...
I already know that everyone will forget me once I'm gone though, That just how people are...But I still kind of feel sad that They will forget me. But that gives me another endless excuse for me to not express my feelings to the person I like Hahah~ I have a million lists of excuses when it comes to that, Don't I?
Lately, I've lost a little weight, but not enough...I'll be there soon hopefully. I need a scale... One day, I'll be skinny and beautiful, and I'll make everyone sorry Fighting~...LOL I say things like this...But I feel like Its just a talk to myself and it won't happen. I WILL be skinny though...Beauty isn't something I can just work at.. when my face is the way it is..but I can change my weight, So this can be done and will be.
I feel like I'm waiting for something,But I dont really know what that thing is. I hope it appears to me quickly~ I'll be patient!
I'm always wondering about you,why do you do that? Maybe I'm thinking too much again Oh well...
I have to do some math...I'll probably talk about that tomorrow...My teacher is unbelievable and not in the good way!
スキちゃん = Mr. Crush (Suki Chan)--It is no name in particular, but a substitute to actually saying the name :P ---------------------- Wow its been so many years since i've been here
Today is Valentines day. Suprisingly I looked pretty today for once in my life.
This is a rare occasion! I didn't see スキちゃん though--Sort of Dissapointed~
Ah well~, I got my clothes and glasses from my grandmother and was very happy!
Lately things haven't been so bad, my sickness is a lot better as well.
Last night(Which was supposed to be--This morning,) I got a message from this guy who was in this band that i had for a little while before and this guy from it was the one who told me that he liked me, He sent a really nice message. I don't ussually get such nice things from people..so it was really nice TT<3 He spoke of how i'm, "an extremely important person" to him and that he hoped that something amazing would happen to me today(even thought it didn't, I still appreciate it). Really, i dont understand what i've done to deserve such kindness, But really I'm so thankful of it.
But anyway, I'll be using this as a 'diary' again. To complain and dump all my feelings out Tehe~ Poor ameba
I don't really have anything I can write about today because it was uneventful. Nothing too good happened, nothing too bad happened. --------
What is it I could do when I have a valentines anyway~? LOL I saw this post from Kevin woo and he was asking his fans to be his valentine() but it made me think....What do you even do when you have a valentine? LOL Or is it...just a term? Or what? Or does it mean boyfriend to girlfriend? I dont understand...I'm so inexperienced when it comes to love and things LOL its so confusing...
Since I've been raised with the upbringing, Today is the boys day, Next month is the girls day to give the boys their love. I'm not too sure If I'll partake in this...Just incase スキちゃん knows what this holiday is, I dont want him to find out I like him by taking that chance
my mom desperately wants me to date him though, she likes him so so much LOL, Maybe I talk about him too much? LOL Shes on the approve boat 100%. She drove home today and was like, "So how's your friend?" and I say, "What friend" and she proceeds to say スキちゃん's name.......... I guess its good that my mother approves of him--But its useless when I know that person couldn't ever like me back So......
Aigoo~ Oh well, Now I must finish reading and answering questions for literature class! I'll write a proper blog like I used to starting tomorrow--hopefully something worth writing about happens..GoodNighty~
http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_rf0I5tjfXbg/SMQbR-Hy7oI/AAAAAAAAAEo/PKUlyCBcNdo/s400/064.jpg Flapjack is so cute! xD why does he hang out with knuckles hes so mean to him ;0;
Ive been snacking alot grabbing 2 treussel cakes, a 2-peice brownie, a big bag of strawberries or some veggie and then the actuall food. I wonder how much calories tht is o-o..im gonna get fat @@ its oky though bcause ussually i only eat like this on weekends, when i come home ussually all i eat is like strawberriess xD
my dad broke my bathroom light--now it wont work. Sucks D:
Hah! I swear i was just thinking about things and have you ever had a time were you just Felt like..something i cant explain. Likee...When that chinese kid was all rejected us like we felt like a stab in heart and like around me i just felt like in big bold brighting words it jumped out all like REJECT--TION around our heads LOLOLOL.
things like that! i tottaly have a big immagination. Hehehe whenever i watch my friends fangirliring i litterally see hearts floating LOLOLOL Meitra be all "ouuuu Oreeeenjiii" *heart pop heart pop* LOLOLOLOLOL Its so funny xD
I dont ussually see that with me--when i walk past the person i like im like *sees them nd quickly looks someplace* I DIDNT SEE THEM LALAL LOL its so bad that im like *pretends to be texting on my phone* Yeah im not texting anyone im just trying to find a distraction so i dont look at you LOLOL xD
On friday i was talking about it to a friend and then i walked up the stairs and saw him and i was like ah.. LOL i like stopped breathing LOLOLOL then i was all like "ahh stupid stupid" *knocks head* You know like you are in a daze when you see someone and your likke NOO GO BACK TO NORMAL XDD nevermind...im wierd...*dies* xD
blech tommorow is school. i dont know if its possible to handle two days of keyclub. One is already stressfull as it is. I have to get over this antisocial personality i have blech. I feel so uncomfterable around everyone in there. I'll just sit in there and be quiet. Dont talk to anyone unless they talk to me first. hm that probably wont work since if im uncomfterable i cant handle akward silences and tend to babble and ramble.
When they are all talking and im sitting bymyself i think i'll just stay that way. by myself. Then no one is paying attention to me and i dont embarress myself again feeling obliged to talk...>>;; blech...dsgsgasgas
Im deaf..yet i have really good hearing. like at school when were in lunchroom im like...? LOLOLOL other day someone was talking and i was like...what is she saying? LOL xD
COURAGE COURAGE KEEP YOUR COURAAGE NYANNII GO GO FIGHTING! i wont give up. Im going to take a chance. I wont be hiding anymore. i wont obtain anything i i kep this up!! ;0;
OMG IF THEY KEEP PLAYING THE ADVENTURE TIME COMMERICAL I AM GOING TO DIEEE! I cannot wait till april ;0;
"WHAT TIME IS IT?" "I DONT CAREEE!!!" LOLOLOL God, i wish that was me he came up too id be like "ADVENTURE TIMEE!!??!?"
LOLOL Ive been waiting ever since that comerical of him in that suit came out. xDDD
I was supposed to be left handed--But was forced to be a righty by my parents. I found by searching around that we have sloppy handwriting,Things need to be explained better,decreased hand-eye-coordination,Clumsyness,stuttering, and bad at math. Sadly i have like all of those,Great. wonderful. LOL i dont really stutter much but all the rest i have alot of LOL
Why is everyone so mean to justin Bieber? >>;; i think theyre just jealous+most people are so judgemental. So far as i know--theres not really a good reason to hate him. Peoples reasons that ive heard:(searched and copied) 1.) Hes ugly 2.) he sounds like a girl 3.) All his songs are about love at 15 4.) Because he looks and sounds like a 10-year-old girl 5.) Because "they" hate his music 6.) "Hes the dumbest person ever he desnt deserve the fame" 7.) They hate how hes being compared to legends like mj 8.) "hes a sissy and fugly **** who's arrogant" 9.) "he is ment to be 15 years old but sings like 12 & looks 12 too" 10.) "he has a squeaky voice and is so stupid, i hate him he gets on my nerves" 11.) "because he is soo famous. He does not sing good, hes a wannabe gangster" 12.) "Because hes stupid and ugly" and the list goes ON & ON all relatively the same Seriously. Those reasons are stupid.
Now i went and looked to see some videos by him Videos watched: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CHVhwcOg6y8 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ucvkO0x-mL4&feature=channel http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1zuN17t51A
Okay. Now please. Seriously. Dont take this wrong. I thought he was a girl when i heard him on tv at first. but you probably thought the same when you heard MJ and Justin timberlake, right? Yet everyone loves them.
And gosh do i LOVE justin timberlake and Micheal jackson. And some people hate them being compared to mj and jt--but everyone compares anyway. Everyone has to start somewhere. i can understand if you think he's not as good as them and its a bit insulting--but think bout this. Justin is only like 15 years old. Leave him alone xD
Okay, People says hes ugly. Im a pretty picky person, Yet i can honestly say he is attractive. hes not ugly at all. And people say he is arrogant--im reading things by him and he seems like a funny guy and really kind.
"He doesnt deserve the fame." I think he deserves it. He grew up poor, a single mom, wore hand-me-downs that were bought from a salvation army store. Then got intrested in music and then taughte himself to play guitar and piano. And many instrument he can play within minutes of practicing. Hes a good dancer and good at sports. He works VERY HARD praciticing dancing and singing. Writing and doing his best to keep his fans happy and SAFE. I know this sounds bad, But i know theyre alot of people who have been in the same sittuation--but not everyone can have what they want. of course they deserve it too, But he has tried hard to get where he is--he didnt just randomly walk down the street and someone go up to him and be like IM GONNA MAKE YOU FAMOUS LITTLE BOY XDDD
People are saying he sounds like a girl, DUDE--obviously he hasnt gone throught pubrity yet. Leave him alone xDD
And people say he looks like a girl? HE DOES NOT LOOK A GIRL. LOL He looks like any "skater" boy these days.
"he sings about love at 15" okay guys im about to science nerd here. xD For one, who isnt singing about love these days? What else is he about to sing about? School? and two; I know it sounds silly for teenagers to be in love. But its possible. Attraction is determined by the chemical that is produced and released in your brain--Dopamine, serotinin and Norepinephrine working together.
Norepinephrine: identical to adrenaline Has the effect when you unexpectedly bump into someone your intrested in--you start to sweat, your heart races and your mouth goes dry.
Dopamine:This chemical stimulates increased energy, less need for sleep/food, focused attention and exquisite delight in smallest details of mushy Soap operas. Which typically just prodcues the feeling of bliss.
Serotonin: is love's most important chemicals that may explain why when you’re falling in love--your new love keeps popping into your thoughts. When they are released your love grows stronger. So by spending time with someone and seeing them alot releases more and more serotonin making you fall closer to love. BUT everyone's level needs to be diffrent before you ACTUALLY fall in love And these stages are often called puppy love,crush and such.
So anyway to put it simply: yes, you can fall in love when you are a teenager, Is it likely? No, But deffinately Possible. Its more likely that you are experiencing one of the stages BEFORE love--like the one listed before; Puppy Love.
"Hes a wanna be gangster" I dont think hes a wanna be gangster, Just cause you dress and talk a certain way--doesnt make you a gangster.
Most of them are saying he's stupid. Seriously i dont know him well--but just because you've seen some things of him not being very smart doesnt mean hes stupid. everyone has theyre moments...Think thats everything xD
Wow, I slept so much today. I think i slept like a whole days worth. I went to sleep yesterday at like 4-5pm and then woke up at 4am and kept sleeping and waking up and didnt officially get up till 2-3pm :P
Lol The other day my uncle was trying to figure out why i was upset--&&i really had no idea what they were talking about. I SAY ALOT OF THINGS AT THE MOMENT. I say alot of things i dont mean xD
He was all like "DO I HAVE TO COME OUT THERE?" LOL Now my familys all worried--&&i didnt understand till today because my mom explained it too me xD
My family is a little nosy LOL The reason i was upset because the other day i was complaining because these people were acting funny(when i say that i dont mean funny as literal funny like haha funny but like...mean funny xD) and i was a little annoyed by it and spoke out about it.
Seriously alot of things bother me at the time, and i will admit i overreact some things because it bothers me SO MUCH at the time. but after i can stop thinking about it so much then i dont care anymore xD
And when you comfront me about it im like....what are you talking about? LOL xDD I need thorough Explinations
きつと無理叶うはずもないなんて決め付けて
！胸打つ鼓動信じて今ＬＥＴ’Ｓ ＣＨＡＮＧＥ ＭＹＳＥＬＦ～
龍が如くを最近あたしのお気に入りのゲーム。。。(;^_^A
I won't ruin it for you that haven't seen it 
Hehe Francis is always super cool and funny :3 We've been friends since 8th grade! Thats a long time now that I think about it 
I'll Be gone soon... 
But that gives me another endless excuse for me to not express my feelings to the person I like Hahah~ I have a million lists of excuses when it comes to that, Don't I?
Fighting~...LOL I say things like this...But I feel like Its just a talk to myself and it won't happen. I WILL be skinny though...Beauty isn't something I can just work at.. when my face is the way it is..but I can change my weight, So this can be done and will be.
Maybe I'm thinking too much again
and not in the good way! 
) but it made me think....What do you even do when you have a valentine? LOL Or is it...just a term? Or what? Or does it mean boyfriend to girlfriend? I dont understand...I'm so inexperienced when it comes to love and things LOL its so confusing...
