I've been nominate by my friend for the ALS ice bucket challenge.. so yeah got to do it and yes I'll donate
now I wonder who shall I nominate for the ALS ice bucket challenge
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After seeing you today,
I believed there is this little part in me that still loves you.
no matter how much I hated you,
no matter how much I said I don't wanna see you,
I still catch myself stealing quick glances at you.
I hated myself for by begging you to stay.
I hate myself for being so nice to everyone.
I sometimes wonder,
are you happy now?
are you living to your fullest now?
are you enjoying every moment you are awake now?
do you think of me too?
do you remember me?
it's been 4 years.
yet I'm still here,
pretending to be so happy,
keeping myself busy to stop thinking of you,
listening to happy upbeat music to stay happy,
avoiding the topic "love",
avoid any means of friends trying to get me a partner.
being alone can be nice..
but once I start feeling that I wished I have someone to be there for me when I'm feeling down,
you're the firs person that came to mind.
force myself to stop contacting you,
only this way I know you'll be happier,
you prefer not knowing me anyway right?
sometimes I wonder any of my "friend" know about this blog of mine,
or rather anyone knows about me,
what kinda person I really am,
what I really like,
why am I so able to just be alone.
I hope..
one day,
maybe just one day,
I'll get to feel that someone out there actually knows I existed.
I don't feel loved.
I don't feel liked.
I don't feel needed.
I don't feel my existence.
this feeling sucks.
seriously it does.
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I believed there is this little part in me that still loves you.
no matter how much I hated you,
no matter how much I said I don't wanna see you,
I still catch myself stealing quick glances at you.
I hated myself for by begging you to stay.
I hate myself for being so nice to everyone.
I sometimes wonder,
are you happy now?
are you living to your fullest now?
are you enjoying every moment you are awake now?
do you think of me too?
do you remember me?
it's been 4 years.
yet I'm still here,
pretending to be so happy,
keeping myself busy to stop thinking of you,
listening to happy upbeat music to stay happy,
avoiding the topic "love",
avoid any means of friends trying to get me a partner.
being alone can be nice..
but once I start feeling that I wished I have someone to be there for me when I'm feeling down,
you're the firs person that came to mind.
force myself to stop contacting you,
only this way I know you'll be happier,
you prefer not knowing me anyway right?
sometimes I wonder any of my "friend" know about this blog of mine,
or rather anyone knows about me,
what kinda person I really am,
what I really like,
why am I so able to just be alone.
I hope..
one day,
maybe just one day,
I'll get to feel that someone out there actually knows I existed.
I don't feel loved.
I don't feel liked.
I don't feel needed.
I don't feel my existence.
this feeling sucks.
seriously it does.
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I can't seem to find the right time to unlock the remaining 4 pictures TwT
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