The agony and anguish that I have been going
through these past months is truly unbelievable.
Truly surreal.
The pain, the suffering, torment,
and distress was something I could not bear.
When one is deceived by the love of your life –
someone you’ve trusted the most in this entire
universe, what would you do?
What would you think, what would you feel?
If that one person whom you’ve believed in and
depended upon suddenly threw you off board and
drowned both your body and soul, what would you do?
What if that person not only drowned you but
kept throwing stones at you when you were
struggling to stay alive,
struggling,
struggling,
struggling,
for your life in the vast ocean.
Crying.
What if that person had a companion –
Another monster to help drown me
to death. Two against one?
Torture and hell.
Torture and hell.
Torture and hell.
The love of my life thought I would die by
this mental and physical torture.
The love of my life wanted to drown me deep down
till the bottom of the ocean.
The two monsters wanted to tie a stone to my
heart so that I would never have to
reappear in front of them.
I bled so badly,
My heart cut into pieces..
But after all of this torture,
I did not die.
I didn’t because I believe in truth, I believe in
what is right and what is wrong.
I believe in the path of righteousness.
In morality
and in reason.
However, unfortunately, I came to see that
there are monsters in this world without these
values,
not a bit of it..
these monsters with
Lower spiritual levels.
Lower human levels.
They appear to be ordinary citizens,
but they are in disguise.
This monster, or, these monsters who caused all of
this distress are only worthy of being called
“thing”.
They were in it together,
both planning my death and enjoying my suffering.
Treating my feelings as trash
And stepping on
and crushing my heart.