おやすみれちゃん
2じかんだけよ
どうもノスタルジックになる。
高校くらいの思い出たちが薄い霧のなかで輝いている。
もうそれから二年という月日が過ぎようとしている。
今のぼくはあの頃のぼくにどう映るのだろう。
その二年で失くしたもの、そして得たものはなんなのだろう。
そのこたえはあいまい、そして時に辛辣。
変わらない自分と変わ っていく自分をさまよい続ける。
それが「ボク」であるのかもダケド。。
これが「人生」であるべきなのかもダケド。。。
いまの世の中、資本主義の世の中、実績能力主義の世の中で
いかに自分に付加価値をつけようかと頑張る自分がいる。
けして悪いことではない。
が、なにかが不協和音を奏でている。
いったい「自分であること」とはなんなのか
このまま歩み続けることで、
人生の足音を響かせ
綺麗なハーモニーを奏でられる日が来るのだろうか
理論、論理 は もはや通用しない、させたくない。
感情、情緒 だ！！
人間だもの
Although i have to wake up 530 tomorrow cuz we r going to London But cant fall asleap(its almost400 now )...
anyway I was too excited this night in the nice club,,,,,
could be Anniversary because of,,,, lala
could be a
Start of Something New
Nothing especially to write today...
I was so tired today cos I had 6 lectuers including tutorials, which means i stadied from 9 to 5 without any break la Im not gonna have that much lectures in one day untill next mounth when I have tutrial again.
Recently I feel like Im not really studying bussiness but studying English during lecture lol I have to focus on what lectuerers say in terms of English rather than business !! Hopefully I will get used to it,,,,
Whats else.....I got new book which my frend recomended to me today!! Its City of Ember, which is written for teenager like HarryPotter and should be easier for me to read la at least I can say it would be easier than the thick text books for Marketing Research or Buyer Behavior ,
i would read this book tonight instead of interneat or watching KinKi DVD, and it would make me sleepy and as a consequense, I can easilly wake up tomorrow. (Recently Im addicted to internet and it prevent me from sound sleep ) Such a intelligent, clever boy am I.
Tomorrow I have only two lectures and after that I have international party organised by my hiphop society at night. Would be fun!!!
There was a hiphop class today!! had sooooo much fan. I realised its much more like KinKi dance, my style.
I found what i practiced in ace quite useful and helpful as well as KinKi dance of course!!!
But the thing is always to be flexible... I think it no that matter in hiphip,,,,, hopefully
Before the lesson I went shopping to get hallowin costume with bussiness school friends. But finally I couldnt decide... undecisive,,,,,
have no ideaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
but actually pirates or dancer like Micheal Jackson which my friends recomended me to be could be fine at all but as for me , how can I say,, its lack of originality!!! i thought I could be KinKi Kids, I mean like red shining clothes , but only three of my friends would noice (I havent written here but I have three KinKi fan friends here, who are from UK Spain HonKong) ...
Im going to London with my flatmate this weekend btw!! verry lookin foward to it, I cant go to Chocolate factory, which some of my friends will visit on saturday, instead though
This is actually second time, Ive been there alone for 2days at the first time, it was so miserable to go to horror house alone lala dont worry this time, I have buddies!!!
ahh recently i dnt study much due to going out almost eveyday and everynight... I think should stop at some point and look back myself
ps KinKis new single'スワンソング' is coming 28th and they sing it in Music station on Fryday!! To my surprise, they r dancing this time!!!!!! Thats what we wanteddd. Cant miss it.