What's the point if you don't change?

I had doubts before publishing the earlier blog. I felt like making that one public would affect my image, expose me as the stuck-up idiot that I am. And it very probably will. I hesitated multiple times, and more than once I considered deleting the whole thing and acting as if nothing happened.
Sure, you could do that. But then, what's the point? If you still worry about what other people think of you, about whether or not people will see you as the uncool guy, then what was the point of doing what you did yesterday?
Sigh...
I want to become someone I love, huh?
Notice how this doesn't mean
"I want to become someone people love".
It's easier said than done, but try and drop that habit of constantly worrying about how others see you. Be yourself, be a good person, and most importantly, become someone you love.
Waaah, writing that felt good. My chest feels lighter, how nice....
Really, writing allows you to organize your thoughts in a way that thinking doesn't. It also allows many other things too, how nice.
Maybe it was the weight of other people's expectations that was lifted off my shoulders? And maybe that's what felt good? Maybe, maybe not...
In any case, that's all for now, so see ya