Hey there.
Some days just don't go well do they.
Luckily, nothing bad happened, but at the same time, I'm just dissatisfied with what I've done. Over the past few days, I've made what feels like no progress whatsoever in anything. I know that's not true, but the feeling is there and it won't just go away like that.
It's a result of how I used to treat myself. It's standard measure now that if I feel like I've wasted a considerable portion of my time, I just get depressed and look at the person in the mirror and ask him if that's how he wants his life to be. Over time, that "considerable portion of time" has become shorter and shorter, to the point that just a few days with crawling progress is enough to put me in that state.
Is this a bad thing? No. At least, that's what I believe. Yes, it's important to take a break every once in a while, but whenever I can, I want to grow.
I'm greedy like that. Dissatisfaction leads me to ask myself if I'm fine with how things are. My answer, of course, is no, and so the next day I try harder.
I've been given a lot of things in life, a lot of chances,a lot of possibilities. I've been given a future, so I want to make the best of it. My tomorrow is in my hands, and I want to become the person I want to be, whoever he is.
I'm the only one responsible for that. Others may help, but they have themselves to worry about. I am the only one responsible for my future.
Sigh, sometimes I know what I have to do, and other times, I forget it. It's good to forget everything and just do whatever you're doing every so often, but those moments become dangerous if they happen too often. Well, wasteful, not dangerous. To me it's the same thing though.
And so, in light of everything we've written now, what shall we do? Let's do the proper things, hey. Then, let's do our best.
おやすみなさい
Some days just don't go well do they.
Luckily, nothing bad happened, but at the same time, I'm just dissatisfied with what I've done. Over the past few days, I've made what feels like no progress whatsoever in anything. I know that's not true, but the feeling is there and it won't just go away like that.
It's a result of how I used to treat myself. It's standard measure now that if I feel like I've wasted a considerable portion of my time, I just get depressed and look at the person in the mirror and ask him if that's how he wants his life to be. Over time, that "considerable portion of time" has become shorter and shorter, to the point that just a few days with crawling progress is enough to put me in that state.
Is this a bad thing? No. At least, that's what I believe. Yes, it's important to take a break every once in a while, but whenever I can, I want to grow.
I'm greedy like that. Dissatisfaction leads me to ask myself if I'm fine with how things are. My answer, of course, is no, and so the next day I try harder.
I've been given a lot of things in life, a lot of chances,a lot of possibilities. I've been given a future, so I want to make the best of it. My tomorrow is in my hands, and I want to become the person I want to be, whoever he is.
I'm the only one responsible for that. Others may help, but they have themselves to worry about. I am the only one responsible for my future.
Sigh, sometimes I know what I have to do, and other times, I forget it. It's good to forget everything and just do whatever you're doing every so often, but those moments become dangerous if they happen too often. Well, wasteful, not dangerous. To me it's the same thing though.
And so, in light of everything we've written now, what shall we do? Let's do the proper things, hey. Then, let's do our best.
おやすみなさい