i didn't write anything on this blog so long long time......
i have been throuh many trouble sad lost and now i face with a new crisis ....
i graduated (finally) since March. ofcourse i applied for many company and i got one.
He said he want me to wait until the office have done....I waited......3 month later.......i still waited......more 3 month i still waited until last month he called me He changed plan he found new place to built the office so he wanted me to wait for 6 month...........
....... i cant say anything......
i started to apply job again and then i wonder which company that i want to work with.....
that why 2nite i cant go to sleep........
after 2 hours plus i just read Kim Run Do's book..... i realized that if it have a thing that i want to live with it forever it's might be a Japanese cartoon and Fashion.
Maybe you're thinking that "So why dont u apply for a Japanese cartoon's company"
Beacuse i live really far from there and i cant go live apartment near there.
now i.m living with mom in my granma house. mom working here ( car's part factory my uncle business) she told me that she cant leave here leave her job....
How i can go live alone without her when i only have her alone.....since young dad was sepereted and lived in different house. she raised me alone ( my dad came to see me everyday until he had to move for his job...)
last 2 year my dad passed away by cancer............
By this losing that make me think that it's ok to die any sooner to live with this pain. Death is less painful.
So now all iwant to do is just make my mom happy and not to do this hard job anymore.
but she refused ....
now this is my cross road 1st way get job that near home so i dont hve to move out 2nd try hard nearly to impossible get my cartoon's company job ....... i dont have choice that to leave mom.... i not gonna happen.....
so what should i do i'm really confuse i even cant go to sleep
i have been throuh many trouble sad lost and now i face with a new crisis ....
i graduated (finally) since March. ofcourse i applied for many company and i got one.
He said he want me to wait until the office have done....I waited......3 month later.......i still waited......more 3 month i still waited until last month he called me He changed plan he found new place to built the office so he wanted me to wait for 6 month...........
....... i cant say anything......
i started to apply job again and then i wonder which company that i want to work with.....
that why 2nite i cant go to sleep........
after 2 hours plus i just read Kim Run Do's book..... i realized that if it have a thing that i want to live with it forever it's might be a Japanese cartoon and Fashion.
Maybe you're thinking that "So why dont u apply for a Japanese cartoon's company"
Beacuse i live really far from there and i cant go live apartment near there.
now i.m living with mom in my granma house. mom working here ( car's part factory my uncle business) she told me that she cant leave here leave her job....
How i can go live alone without her when i only have her alone.....since young dad was sepereted and lived in different house. she raised me alone ( my dad came to see me everyday until he had to move for his job...)
last 2 year my dad passed away by cancer............
By this losing that make me think that it's ok to die any sooner to live with this pain. Death is less painful.
So now all iwant to do is just make my mom happy and not to do this hard job anymore.
but she refused ....
now this is my cross road 1st way get job that near home so i dont hve to move out 2nd try hard nearly to impossible get my cartoon's company job ....... i dont have choice that to leave mom.... i not gonna happen.....
so what should i do i'm really confuse i even cant go to sleep
゜。Happy Birthday。゜
It's Time to MOVE ON 
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