5/30(木)
今日はバブルティーのバイト2回目。
朝11時からの出勤で、13時半くらいまでマネージャーと2人きりだった。しかもこの間、めちゃくちゃ暇で、私英語話せないからずっと沈黙が流れてた笑
だけど英語を伸ばすためには話すしかないから、頑張って話しかけてみたの。
何話したかあんまり覚えてないんだけど、他の従業員の話と、年齢と見た目の話と、身長の話をしたわ、そういえば。たぶん私と話すとき、多少ゆっくり話してくれてると思うんだけど、2人きりだと聞き取れるし、私が話し終えるのを待ってくれるから、会話が成り立ってる感じ。
ていうか本当に優しいの。何度も言ってるんだけど、イギリスの人って本当に優しくて、マネージャーにも話したらそうだねって言ってた。
特に私がいるオックスフォードは、いろんな国から学生が来てるから、やっぱりこの辿々しい英語にも慣れてるんだって。だから、私が慣れない英語話してても待ってくれるし、勉強中だって分かってくれるから大丈夫だよって言ってくれた。仕事中も、英語の勉強に関しても、励ましてくれる。
いいバイト先見つけられて、本当に嬉しい。ありがとうホストシスター！
だけどやっぱりもう1人のスタッフが出勤してからは、私全然会話に入れなくて、ほんとに疎外感。そもそも私、英語話せないし聞き取れないし、だから仕事も他のみんなよりできないから、きっと扱いづらいだろうなとか思ったり、、。
だって今日もめちゃくちゃ忙しくて、列ができるほどお客さん来てくれたんだけど、忙しくなると注文も早くなるから、全然聞き取れなくて、事前にドリンク作るとかができないの。だからもう1人のスタッフが全部作って私は氷入れて水入れてフタをつけるだけ。本当に申し訳なかったな、、。この作業だけなのに遅いし。マネージャーはそんなことないよって言ってくれたけど。だけどこう言ってくれるからには、もっと頑張らないと！頑張ろ！
あ、会話に入れないってところに戻るんだけど、やっぱり早くて聞き取れないっていう問題と、そもそも私に話しかけてないから、聞こえないっていう問題と、長年の関係があるからこそ知ってる情報前提の話をしてて入る隙がないって問題がある。
シャイでいるわけではないんだけど、私に話しかけても意味ないんだよね普通に。向こうからしたら。
話すことないし、どこまで踏み込んでいいかも分からないだろうし。んー、難しい！
まあまだこれからだし！もっと仕事にも慣れて、英語にも慣れてきたらきっと仲良くなれる！ううん、仲良くする！自分からいくしかない。何事も。
土曜日もシフト入ってるし、また頑張るぞ！
それではおやすみなさい〜💤
30th May
Today, I had my part-time job for the second time.
I started working at 11:00 am with my manager until about 13:30 pm. In addition, it was very free and because I can’t speak English, it was silent. 😅
However, in order to improve my English, all the thing that I can do is talking to native speakers, so I tried to talk to her.
Even though I don’t remember what we were talking about, I think I could keep conversation then. Oh, we talked about our coworkers, our age and our apparent, and our hight actually. I think she speaks a little bit slowly when she talks with me, so I can keep conversation only when there are two people, me and the other.
By the way, she is really sweet. I mentioned that again and again, people in England are very kind, and my manager agreed with that as well.
Especially in Oxford, where I am, there are so many foreign student that local people got used to non-native English. And she told me that they will wait me to finish talking, and they must understand that I am still learning English. She encourages me about English and job as well.
I am so glad to get such a good workplace. Thank you to my host sister!
However, after another staff was coming, I couldn’t join their conversation anymore, and I felt isolated. The thing is that I’m not fluent enough to both of listening and speaking. And due to that, I can’t work well compared to other new employees. That’s why I think my colleagues might have difficulty treating me.😢
Thus, it was so busy that customers were waiting in a queue. Of course when it is busy, it becomes fast-paced, then I am not able to listen to their order clearly and I can’t make their drinks in advance. In the end, my colleague made all of drinks, and I just put ice and water in them. I felt really sorry at that time. Even though I just did that, I was slow at work.😢 My manager said to me that you did well, but I don’t think so. But it was kind of her to say so, I have to make more efforts! Go for it!!
I will talk about my problem of conversation with my coworkers, I found some points. Firstly, they speak so fast that I can’t listen to. Secondly, they don’t talk to me anymore, and I don’t try to hear them. And the last one is that I never know what they are talking about because of this short relationship between us.
I have never been shy, but they don’t have any reason for talking to me. We have no topics to talk and we are not sure the boundaries of how much we can ask about personal question. Umm, it’s hard for me to get along with them.
But I just started, and I believe that I will become friends with them when I adapt to my job, and I got used to English. We must become friends!! I must do everything proactively.
I’m on Saturday as well, so I try to do it!
All the things that I should do is to talk to them proactively.
Good night~ 🌙
