It seems not appropriate to post this sorry in blog, so starting this page.
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With all the respect,
when saying thanks,
and apologize,
it's all true from my heart.
I am not fake it. 
I know the feeling of being betrayed, so I won't.
did not and will not betray the trust.
I can even vow to God with my life --- because I am really not betraying people.
I am sorry.
I can feel there are some little misunderstandings, but...
I am sorry for all the pressure that brings to over there.
really sorry..... m(. .)m
sorry.