STRESS - not being secured

Moving here, I think I feel strong stresses every day. For me, the most important thing to reduse them is to take enough sleep and take medicine everyday.

To adjust myself to the environment, I think I should externalize myself more and it's important to extend the moving area for that.

Here, the central area of Japan, time seems to be passing faster than any other side of the country. People are so intolerant to wait something and they start to walk until red signal is lighting.

Anything here are rotaiting a lot more than any other area in the country.

Feeling insecurity is the major reason of the stress. I should make my securiry more secured.

Maybe I need more money to buy my relief and to be secured.

When in Rome, do as the Romans do

Hello.

As the start of this, let me introduce myself.

Well, I like something sweet. I mean, I like something that I can feel the sweetness. I prefer sweet than bitter although I take bitter taste of coffee more than a cup of that in a day.

I just started a new life in most crowded place in the world (I guess). Here, Tokyo is a nice city. For me, it is hard to get atatched with the life like urban people does, but I'm sure that it is also a good training for the life. I am gradually attaing how to get accustumed with here day by day. It is far from I imagined before, and sometimes it is so hard, but I think urban life has something essencial to live in this world in anywhere, in any place. There is no safe place here, and most important thing is that I must find a place to stand from these troublesome place. This is not only a thing that is happning in the urban area. It is also true in anywhere. I realized that there is no best plase to live. All I have to do is just to decide a place to live and most important thing is to choice. And then, we should just try the best there after that

Sometimes I remember about my hometown. My life there was so calm and I didn't have to care much about the crime, something like pickpocket or snach, street slasher, like that. However I think these frightning factors make people awear more about the human being's insanity that exists deep inside in every mankind. Since I moved there, I realized there is much oppotunity to think about what human being is, and I don't think it is not a kind of waste of my time.

Anyway, I would like to mention about the saying that ' When in Rome, do as the Romans do.' which came to happen inside of me as spending here.

There is no worth to compare the past. Whatever my past was, I just have to live 'now'.

There is no 'better' place in this world. All I have to do is find a place to stand and I feel the need to be aware anytime, anyplace.