さむい、ほんとにさむいです.
Covid is getting worse here..."We have to save the Christmas" on the middle of your face.
Now everything ,but supermarkerts, is closed. We have to be at 20:00 at home, not more than 4 people meeting so basically we can work and stay at home.
I like to stay at home but I like more to meet my friends and my niece and nephew...I miss them so much.
The good point is that I'm saving a lot of money and as Codomo is not going to stream any concert after next month, I will save even more.
Yesterday I was extra sensitive so the dreams at night were very weird.
I thought I already faced that having my own family is turning impossible but my subconscious wasn't that sure until yesterday.
I dreamt that a friend posted on Facebook that she is pregnant, I don't know where I was but I left the room and went to the bathroom to cry.
Not happiness crying, a really sad and broken crying.
How I'm feeling now? weird.
Even, it was a year that I don't have sex and soon a year that I'm single, I'm feeling like a shit but I suppose it all happens because of the situation and everything that is going on.
Anyway I will try to fight hard back, as always, I can have some bad days but I'm not going to let it takes me down.
I was enough time down in the past and I don't want to go back to this.
What a nice blog...woho. Sorry.
じゃまた！
