It makes me anxious when all the planning for so long suddenly will fall out of place. 

It makes me sad, It makes me doubt myself if I did the right decision, It makes want not to plan on the next and yet they depend on you. 


I understand some of the situations but still it hits me. 


It makes me think why is it that it is soo easy to let down    . 

Oh well there goes my brain again talking bullshit!